_Kaira_
This Isn't Fine
- Oct 2, 2020
- 826
I didn't want to learn about it this way, as I didn't see it coming. I saw a post on twitter that Mahakali passed away, I was shocked and didn't want to believe it. I'm so sorry. I hope you're at peace.
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I didn't want to learn about it this way, as I didn't see it coming. I saw a post on twitter that Mahakali passed away, I was shocked and didn't want to believe it. I'm so sorry. I hope you're at peace.
Mm80
Enlightened
- May 15, 2019
- 1,604
Bless you maha. You were such a valuable member of this forum.i never thought youd leave but i hope you are at peace.sleep well. Xx
Sherri
Archangel
- Sep 28, 2020
- 13,794
Oh maha I'm also addicted to opioids, been hooked on tramado for 5 years and on subixine for 2 years, wish we would have talked about that. But j is it's too late....
Remember when you kept on mentioning her native country and I told YOU to stop doing it because you didn't know what would happen???
And instead you texted her quickly cause you were too desperate to know that she had another friend and might have lied to you about her country of origin.
There you go. Now write two lines of so sorry to hear blah.
Respectfully, she wouldn't want you commenting in her thread, so please stop.
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Mm80
Enlightened
- May 15, 2019
- 1,604
Im sorry but what on earth are you talking about ? What were the consequences of me mentioning her native country exactly? The details which she openly shared herself along with photis. And I didnt desperately text anyone. Your talking shit and need to get off your fucking high horse. I knew maha well in the end and we shared several Hundred messages. As much as youd like to hope you werent her only friend. I won't be accepting any guilt trips from someone like you about a minor disagreement i resolved with her about a year ago..Take your fucking blame and accusations elsewhere.
Plus you have no right to be telling another user that they cannot comment and what maha would have wanted. Again you need to get off your high horse.its non of your business.
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OMG I haven't been here for a week or more - is this Mahakali, the Croat, the really, really nice lady who helped everyone she could?
Jesus, I'm saddened to my core.
Jesus, I'm saddened to my core.
Infinite Conscious
Experienced
- Aug 18, 2020
- 282
I am so so so sorry to have missed this.
We were supposed to do this together, last Christmas... when you said you were giving life another chance, bought an apartment, were feeling great in a long time...
And now I find out you left... by yourself.
Your letter made it to the national media... you did succeed in making a mess... actually, in making it right.
It wasn't meant for us to depart together, but I wish you found peace.
I will be joining soon.
RIP, dear Mahakali.
Počivaj u miru, draga A.
charlottewilts
read Dostoyevsky
- Jun 15, 2019
- 494
hello. i am very sorry but i'm here to confirm that mahakali passed. in case any of her friends wanted closure, since the username is not crossed out. @Marquis if it's okay, i think her name should be crossed out. as a burial rite, to lay her to rest...
everything she talked about was true: contacting news outlets, her father being ill, her boss being horrible to her, not being able to pay for a loan, commuting a lengthy distance to work... she was a pedagogue by profession, which might explain how she was able to comfort so many people.
i haven't been on this site in a while but i check up occasionally, i like to know i still have the option if things don't work out.
anyhow, after finding this post, i went to research suicide cases in Croatia. i found this article from early February, and it's a perfect match.
under the spoiler i have used Google Translate to translate the article and fixed up its errors.
i am so sorry. i wish i had used the site more and had met you. i could've gotten you tramadol, if it would've helped you hold out until things weren't so complicated anymore.
may you rest in peace.
everything she talked about was true: contacting news outlets, her father being ill, her boss being horrible to her, not being able to pay for a loan, commuting a lengthy distance to work... she was a pedagogue by profession, which might explain how she was able to comfort so many people.
i haven't been on this site in a while but i check up occasionally, i like to know i still have the option if things don't work out.
anyhow, after finding this post, i went to research suicide cases in Croatia. i found this article from early February, and it's a perfect match.
under the spoiler i have used Google Translate to translate the article and fixed up its errors.
i am so sorry. i wish i had used the site more and had met you. i could've gotten you tramadol, if it would've helped you hold out until things weren't so complicated anymore.
may you rest in peace.
CROATIA - WHY WAS ONE LIFE LOST?
Nothing better shows how cruel the system is and how much we turn a blind eye to psychological problems than the case of a 35-year-old pedagogue from Slavonia (the eastern part of Croatia) who took her own life after her employer and a doctor ignored her calls for help.
Although it is an unwritten rule that the media does not report on suicides, we publish her story to warn of the problems many of us face, and the system does not know or does not want to recognize them.
Namely, the pedagogue left behind a letter in which she described in detail the problems she faced while trying to find a way out of the darkness.
She has a master's degree in pedagogy and anthropology and has worked as a pedagogue in two primary schools in Slavonia. As she herself admits, she suffered from suicidal depression, and the pandemic and lockdown further aggravated her condition.
In addition to her own problems, the young pedagogue also took care of her seriously ill father, who was having a hard time recovering from heart valve surgery.
She says that she confided everything to the principal of one of the schools where she worked, and states that she was well acquainted with her situation. She says the principal insisted that school staff who had COVID symptoms, and their family members were positive, come to work.
She recounts how the infection soon spread to all classes and classes were switched online.
"Of course, I had to come to work (41 km in one direction), to an empty school that was not heated and where there were only a cleaner, a janitor and a secretary. I did my job (contact with students, parents and services) outside work hours," the pedagogue writes in her letter.
She says that at the beginning of this semester she had requested the principal to allow her work from home, to which she replied that this was the domain of the Ministry of Education, who in turn told her it's the principal who makes such decisions.
Her answer? ' And who will answer the phone, we have a new secretary' and 'It is recommended that people with sensitive household members avoid household members'. So I should avoid my father who has perhaps only a few more months of life left because he is still seriously ill. I have never been so humiliated in my life. My family's life and health are belittled.
I told her what my family was going through while my father was fighting for his life and that whoever didn't go through that couldn't understand it. Her answer? 'I know what it's like, my son was COVID positive.' The comparison of my 70-year-old father and her 30-year-old son who works in the military and who had flu symptoms for a week is really insulting. What is even more insulting is that she humiliated me professionally and reduced my job to a mere 'answering the phone'. I didn't fight for five years to graduate to have my job being reduced to this. By the way, I will mention that she employed her daughter - who has no degree - in the library, without a recruitment competition and did not prescribe a recruitment competition within the prescribed legal deadline," wrote the pedagogue, whose letter was shared on social networks.
She told the principal that she would go on sick leave if she did not allow her to work from home. Unfortunately, the work environment is not the only one that did not respond to her appeal in time.
Her doctor retired, so she registered with a new one, and in the meantime she went to a psychiatrist, who diagnosed her with anxiety disorder and recurrent depressive disorder and recommended a month or two of saving from work.
"When I came to the doctor with the findings, she questioned the findings and opinion of my psychiatrist, who is a recognized specialist and a certified cognitive-behavioral therapist, and said she would not give me sick leave. She instructed me to seek another doctor. I reported to another doctor. and went with the papers to the Croatian Health Insurance Fund", writes the pedagogue.
At the Croatian Health Insurance Fund, she says, they told her that she had to wait a year to get a change of doctor and to contact the current doctor until then.
At the end of the letter, she states that she could not return to work in such a state and that, if she is fired, she will not be able to pay the loan for the apartment or the therapy which she sought from a private company because she was given a public hospital appointment in May.
"I want to save my life and I would accept any help to make me feel better, even hospitalisation, but my hands are tied without the help of a family doctor. I was literally brought to the edge of life. Last night I almost took my own life, but I still have hope that my beautiful, holy country Croatia will not let me down, I am a fighter and it hurts me that at every step I encounter obstacles whenever I try to exercise any human and civil rights that I, as a citizen of this country, should not be denied.
Every day I am a victim of someone else's incompetence, laziness and meanness , and an inefficient system that rewards only the fit. I've had enough. I have no one to turn to for help anymore, all the institutions of this country have let me down. My human dignity is trampled on every day and I am treated worse than an animal. I share my story in the hope that it will encourage conversation in society about things we have been silent about for too long," the pedagogue concludes in a shocking letter.
Unfortunately, her appeals went unheeded and one young life was lost.
We also asked the competent Ministry if they had carried out the supervision and what the conclusions were, but they only told us "how they were acquainted with the case in detail" and that due to the sensitivity of the topic, they were not able to comment on the case.
She begged for help, but the system let her down. Now, unfortunately, it's too late: "I want to save my life. I would accept any help, but my hands are tied."
By DI , February 4th. 2021.Nothing better shows how cruel the system is and how much we turn a blind eye to psychological problems than the case of a 35-year-old pedagogue from Slavonia (the eastern part of Croatia) who took her own life after her employer and a doctor ignored her calls for help.
Although it is an unwritten rule that the media does not report on suicides, we publish her story to warn of the problems many of us face, and the system does not know or does not want to recognize them.
Namely, the pedagogue left behind a letter in which she described in detail the problems she faced while trying to find a way out of the darkness.
She has a master's degree in pedagogy and anthropology and has worked as a pedagogue in two primary schools in Slavonia. As she herself admits, she suffered from suicidal depression, and the pandemic and lockdown further aggravated her condition.
In addition to her own problems, the young pedagogue also took care of her seriously ill father, who was having a hard time recovering from heart valve surgery.
She says that she confided everything to the principal of one of the schools where she worked, and states that she was well acquainted with her situation. She says the principal insisted that school staff who had COVID symptoms, and their family members were positive, come to work.
She recounts how the infection soon spread to all classes and classes were switched online.
"Of course, I had to come to work (41 km in one direction), to an empty school that was not heated and where there were only a cleaner, a janitor and a secretary. I did my job (contact with students, parents and services) outside work hours," the pedagogue writes in her letter.
She says that at the beginning of this semester she had requested the principal to allow her work from home, to which she replied that this was the domain of the Ministry of Education, who in turn told her it's the principal who makes such decisions.
"And who will answer the phone?"
"I tried to approach the principal humanely and told her that I was under extreme stress, in fear for my father's health, I said I had contacted all the class teachers and that they had no problems with my work from home.Her answer? ' And who will answer the phone, we have a new secretary' and 'It is recommended that people with sensitive household members avoid household members'. So I should avoid my father who has perhaps only a few more months of life left because he is still seriously ill. I have never been so humiliated in my life. My family's life and health are belittled.
I told her what my family was going through while my father was fighting for his life and that whoever didn't go through that couldn't understand it. Her answer? 'I know what it's like, my son was COVID positive.' The comparison of my 70-year-old father and her 30-year-old son who works in the military and who had flu symptoms for a week is really insulting. What is even more insulting is that she humiliated me professionally and reduced my job to a mere 'answering the phone'. I didn't fight for five years to graduate to have my job being reduced to this. By the way, I will mention that she employed her daughter - who has no degree - in the library, without a recruitment competition and did not prescribe a recruitment competition within the prescribed legal deadline," wrote the pedagogue, whose letter was shared on social networks.
"The conditions were unbearable."
She says the working conditions at the school were unbearable and that the headmistress rejected any of her ideas to improve the school's work and reduced her job to " having someone to keep her company, listen to village gossip and substitute sick teachers for free".She told the principal that she would go on sick leave if she did not allow her to work from home. Unfortunately, the work environment is not the only one that did not respond to her appeal in time.
Her doctor retired, so she registered with a new one, and in the meantime she went to a psychiatrist, who diagnosed her with anxiety disorder and recurrent depressive disorder and recommended a month or two of saving from work.
"When I came to the doctor with the findings, she questioned the findings and opinion of my psychiatrist, who is a recognized specialist and a certified cognitive-behavioral therapist, and said she would not give me sick leave. She instructed me to seek another doctor. I reported to another doctor. and went with the papers to the Croatian Health Insurance Fund", writes the pedagogue.
At the Croatian Health Insurance Fund, she says, they told her that she had to wait a year to get a change of doctor and to contact the current doctor until then.
"I've been saying for days that I've been brought to the brink."
"I've been telling everyone for days that I've been brought to the brink, people can't recognize me anymore. Although I've struggled with depression and anxiety for the last 12 years, I've taken sick leave twice - one day when I had my wisdom tooth removed and two days when I had streptococcal angina and fever. 40 degrees. I have never raised my voice to students or colleagues in my life, I am a calm and composed person. I went to the doctor again and told her I was on the edge, I told her in front of witnesses that I was acutely suicidal, angry and in fear of my actions. She referred me again to the Croatian Health Insurance Fund. I told her that I was able to take the life of myself or someone else , but she refused to accept me as a patient and reported me to the police for threats," the late school employee said today.At the end of the letter, she states that she could not return to work in such a state and that, if she is fired, she will not be able to pay the loan for the apartment or the therapy which she sought from a private company because she was given a public hospital appointment in May.
"I want to save my life and I would accept any help to make me feel better, even hospitalisation, but my hands are tied without the help of a family doctor. I was literally brought to the edge of life. Last night I almost took my own life, but I still have hope that my beautiful, holy country Croatia will not let me down, I am a fighter and it hurts me that at every step I encounter obstacles whenever I try to exercise any human and civil rights that I, as a citizen of this country, should not be denied.
Every day I am a victim of someone else's incompetence, laziness and meanness , and an inefficient system that rewards only the fit. I've had enough. I have no one to turn to for help anymore, all the institutions of this country have let me down. My human dignity is trampled on every day and I am treated worse than an animal. I share my story in the hope that it will encourage conversation in society about things we have been silent about for too long," the pedagogue concludes in a shocking letter.
Unfortunately, her appeals went unheeded and one young life was lost.
School inspection
We also asked for a comment from the school where she worked and her doctors. The doctor has not yet responded to our call, while the school replied that the inspection of the Education Inspectorate of the Ministry of Science and Education is underway and they are not able to give statements / comments and / or explanations until its completion.We also asked the competent Ministry if they had carried out the supervision and what the conclusions were, but they only told us "how they were acquainted with the case in detail" and that due to the sensitivity of the topic, they were not able to comment on the case.
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