Venting Too lazy to make a plan, but would CTB if it was possible

[RainyDaysGrapefruit]

I'm not necessarily suicidal. I'm not making an active plan, I'm not actively looking for a way to CTB. But I always think that if I was to have a gun or another way out near me, would I do it? The answer is usually yes, but I just feel stupid for not being able to figure out a plan myself. I feel so sluggish from college work that I can't even think up a good plan. I don't know what to do, it feels so hopeless but I just try and keep going forward with the hopes I'll finally find that way out, or at least gain enough energy to make an actual plan.

 

[everosity]

i feel the sameway

 

[LunarLight]

You can check out the Suicide Resource Compilation if you don't know anything about methods.

 

[RainyDaysGrapefruit]

You can check out the Suicide Resource Compilation if you don't know anything about methods.

It's less that I don't know them, more so I don't have the ability to do them. Ever since my earlier suicide attempts, a lot of what I could use is locked up. And because the nearest psych ward is more like an 1800s institution, I know I would need to do it on the first try.

 

[LunarLight]

It's less that I don't know them, more so I don't have the ability to do them. Ever since my earlier suicide attempts, a lot of what I could use is locked up. And because the nearest psych ward is more like an 1800s institution, I know I would need to do it on the first try.

I understand. I hope you find your peace nevertheless.

 

[RainyDaysGrapefruit]

I understand. I hope you find your peace nevertheless.

Thank you. This means a lot to me.