RainyDaysGrapefruit
Member
- Apr 27, 2023
- 9
I'm not necessarily suicidal. I'm not making an active plan, I'm not actively looking for a way to CTB. But I always think that if I was to have a gun or another way out near me, would I do it? The answer is usually yes, but I just feel stupid for not being able to figure out a plan myself. I feel so sluggish from college work that I can't even think up a good plan. I don't know what to do, it feels so hopeless but I just try and keep going forward with the hopes I'll finally find that way out, or at least gain enough energy to make an actual plan.