Tonight's the night

[dimgobaith]

Well tonight's the night. My time has run out. It's not something I want to do bit sadly it's something I have to do.

The temperature is on my side. It's absolutely freezing so being shut in a confined space with charcoal generating heat won't be a problem.

My charcoal is merrily burning away as we speak. As soon as it reduced to white I'll bring it in.
I've got my sleeping meds. I'm parked up in my place.
The gate up half a mile away closed but not locked.
It's unlikely anyone will disturb me. I've got my work laptop so I'll do some last bits of work while I wait.... I didn't get as many things written or as many notes done as I wanted to.. I guess I hoped somehow that it wouldn't come to this.


I'll probably stay around on here as long as I can. It's a semblance of not being alone

 

[dontlook]

I hope you find what you're looking for

If you want to talk I'm always happy to. What kind of work are you finishing up?

 

[maniac116]

I hope your plan goes as you wish it to & that peace & love find you

 

[Higurashi415]

I respect your choice, whatever that may be.
If you wanna talk I'm up

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom you search for, best wishes.

 

[dimgobaith]

I hope you find what you're looking for

If you want to talk I'm always happy to. What kind of work are you finishing up?

Some articles and blogs they asked me to do by Thursday

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

I wish you the best, if you need anyone to talk to ill be here :)

 

[dontlook]

Some articles and blogs they asked me to do by Thursday

That's neat. I don't know if I could make myself focus on work in my last moments. Is there any reason you are?

 

[dimgobaith]

I don't want to let them down. I'm going to leave them in enough of a mess by going (very small team) the least I can do it get these done for them

 

[dontlook]

I don't want to let them down. I'm going to leave them in enough of a mess by going (very small team) the least I can do it get these done for them

Ah, I see. That's really kind of you

I don't know the time frame or details for this kind of method but I hear it can be hard to pull off. (CO, right?) What helped you decide that this was right for you? Of course only if you care to share!

 

[L'absent]

I hope you can find peace. I hug you tightly and wish you a happy and peaceful journey.

Do you have a carbon monoxide level meter?

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[dimgobaith]

Ah, I see. That's really kind of you

I don't know the time frame or details for this kind of method but I hear it can be hard to pull off. (CO, right?) What helped you decide that this was right for you? Of course only if you care to share!

Yeah CO, because I no longer had the means to go Helium and exit bag. I don't have the bottle to hang or to jump from the local bridge like someone did fairly recently.
I don't have access to the right meds to overdose.

I've got all night, probably be morning before anyone realises I'm missing

 

[Worndown]

Sleep well.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

wishing you peace and relief. we're here with you.

 

[Invisible23]

I wish you peace. You're not alone

 

[CatLvr]

Please know we are here for you if you need to talk. I hope you find peace.

 

[dimgobaith]

Well, I've taken the meds. Hopefully I'll fall asleep soon and it'll all be over
I can feel my heart in my ears but that's it
I can feel my heart in my ears but that's it

 

[dontlook]

Well, I've taken the meds. Hopefully I'll fall asleep soon and it'll all be over
I can feel my heart in my ears but that's it
I can feel my heart in my ears but that's it

Sending love hoping it will be ok soon

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

This is my ideal method. If I don't hear from you in the next few days, I will assume it worked well, have even more conviction in this method and eventually follow suit. See you on the other side, my friend.

 

[SA1994EC]

It is heartbreaking to see you going. Your absolute commitment to your work and people who you work with is amazing. You still put others first than you. Please sleep well. And I hope you will wake up in the world you truly belong to. Godspeed.

 

[resteasy3232]

i hope you find peace

 

[Catch-22]

I hope you find peace

 

[AnderDethsky]

I hope it wasn't worse than what you had to go through before. Peaceful not being to you. All the best.

 

[OldManOfTheLake]

Well tonight's the night. My time has run out. It's not something I want to do bit sadly it's something I have to do.

The temperature is on my side. It's absolutely freezing so being shut in a confined space with charcoal generating heat won't be a problem.

My charcoal is merrily burning away as we speak. As soon as it reduced to white I'll bring it in.
I've got my sleeping meds. I'm parked up in my place.
The gate up half a mile away closed but not locked.
It's unlikely anyone will disturb me. I've got my work laptop so I'll do some last bits of work while I wait.... I didn't get as many things written or as many notes done as I wanted to.. I guess I hoped somehow that it wouldn't come to this.


I'll probably stay around on here as long as I can. It's a semblance of not being alone

Working until the end. I like my colleagues a lot and I'm trying to wrap my work up so my replacement has an easier time. Hopefully your colleagues remember you well.

Good luck friend. I envy you.

 

[dimgobaith]

I got found. Ended up in ER under psych team. Still there
Who walks their dog at 2qm

 

[eashanm]

Good Luck

 

[dontlook]

I got found. Ended up in ER under psych team. Still there
Who walks their dog at 2qm

I'm so sorry, I can't imagine what you must be going through. We'll be here to support you

 

[NegevChina]

I got found. Ended up in ER under psych team. Still there
Who walks their dog at 2qm

Sorry for what you're going through and what brought you to this point.
This method often fails. Did it cause you any damage or injury?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry. Failing is so painful. Don't be too hard to yourself. I hope you recover quickly.