Tonight might be the night..I'm scared

[DemonicAngel]

I've had my SN for a little while now and I hoped things would get better. They got worse instead. I have my letter typed up and everything I need to do it except me to. I do take seroquel and that should help with the vomiting. I'm really scared and alone. I'm afraid to leave my brother and cat but I don't think I can stay alive and suffer just for them...please help.

 

[WornOutLife]

Sorry to hear this, dear.

Whatever happens, wish you lots of love and peace!

 

[Birthinjune]

If you're afraid or unsure maybe it is not the time. How can we help?

 

[Squiddy]

Whatever you decide to do, I wish you peace, but it's ok if you're not ready

 

[Worndown]

You will know when it is time. I hope the night goes better for you.

 

[Moose.000]

There's also a chance, just maybe, tonight isn't the night though. Like you said, "might be." I've had over 30 tonight's might be the night. Civilian life, my Army days, in jail, and just last week. Try to make it through the night because "might be" means 50/50. Picture a light switch balanced in the center between on and off. The slightest tap can send it in any direction or it can rest in the middle. Stay in the middle and rest. Wait for the tap. Maybe it will send your switch into a position you aren't expecting at the moment. Or maybe it will send it in the direction you've been fighting off for however long now. If and when the time does come, "might be" won't be in your thoughts any longer. You'll know. The switch will be fully flipped.

 

[WatermelonMel]

If you are scared you it's ok to back out and try another time
Whatever you decide, sending hugs I hope things work out for you.

 

[DemonicAngel]

Too tired to do it to right so I have to put it off

 

[Toptock]

That's absolutely ok. Nobody will judge you. Even all the well known processes here state you should be gentle with yourself around this. Don't rush, and don't beat yourself up. It's beautiful that you decided to wait until you're more comfortable. Don't push yourself if you don't feel that it's time. I hope tomorrow treats you kinder than today and yesterday did.