Help Tonight I'm leaving...

[Suicat]

...the psych ward, on unescorted leave and travelling to a hotel. I've booked for two nights and will put up the do not disturb sign.

I have 100ml of 1.4butanediol and intend to drink it all. (I have meto, diazepam and will buy some alcohol) Those of you that have experience with 1.4BDO, do you think I will be able to handle the taste if mixed with full sugar Dr Pepper? I haven't tried it yet but perhaps I'll be able to just down it then sip Dr pepper to get rid of the aftertaste, though failing that is where the mixer comes in. I'm overweight, hence the 100ml. Any tips would be greatly appreciated. Thank you :)

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

rectal application is better than oral application

so far people who tried it orally just feel into a coma for 2-3 days (they took less than 100ml though)

on the bright side they dont seem to suffer any longterm effects so in case it failure you wont end up as vegetable..

 

[Memento Mori]

whatever reasons u could have, I wish you a safe and peaceful journey

 

[Suicat]

rectal application is better than oral application

so far people who tried it orally just feel into a coma for 2-3 days (they took less than 100ml though)

on the bright side they dont seem to suffer any longterm effects so in case it failure you wont end up as vegetable..

Thank you, I don't think I'll be able to get an enema kit at this time unfortunately, but also how would it stay in? Wouldn't it just "leak out" when the person fell asleep? And isn't it acidic? Ouch...

 

[Suicat]

whatever reasons u could have, I wish you a safe and peaceful journey

Thank you, that's very kind.

 

[borntodie777]

Wish you a safe and peaceful journey, do the adequate research and have some fun before you ctb.

May you find peace

 

[Sinbad]

I wish I could help but unfortunately the 1,4 B method is still uncharted territory. I wish you all the luck in the world in your attempt to CTB.

 

[Suicat]

I would strongly advise against the enema, I don't think that would be something I would want to risk. There's been no proof of that method being successful that I'm aware of. That being said, I wish you a safe journey and all the peace you deserve.

It's the accidental deaths that have tempted me, felt like combining 100ml with benzos and drink might qualify. If it doesn't, then oh well, but I'll be gutted. Though I guess "no harm done". Even to be unconscious for a few days, uh I crave it. I won't be going with an enema though, I also haven't seen any evidence of that working x

And thank you for your kind words.

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

Thank you, I don't think I'll be able to get an enema kit at this time unfortunately, but also how would it stay in? Wouldn't it just "leak out" when the person fell asleep? And isn't it acidic? Ouch...

i have no idea how they do it..but there quite a few reported cases of dead people who did it by rectal application...it seem to be wide spread form application so i dont think it will leak out..

would prevent vomiting aswell (one guy took meto but still vomited a bit)


but 100ml + meto + alcohol could do the job aswell ... you either will be knocked out for a few days or dead for sure


best of luck

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

I would strongly advise against the enema, I don't think that would be something I would want to risk. There's been no proof of that method being successful that I'm aware of. That being said, I wish you a safe journey and all the peace you deserve.

coma and death observed in patients after rectal administration of 15 or 30g 1,4-butanediol (estimated at 200 or 400 mg/kg bw).

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/1-4-butanediol-megathread.10115/page-4

 

[Suicat]

Wow, took a taste on my finger, bleh, thought it was okay and then bam the bitter aftertaste is something else!

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

Wow, took a taste on my finger, bleh, thought it was okay and then bam the bitter aftertaste is something else!

you should mix it with sth like juice or water for sure

 

[Suicat]

you should mix it with sth like juice or water for sure

I've got some Dr pepper, I may down the liquid then some Dr pepper or mix it into two drinks. Just don't want to waste it. Sat in the hotel and took my meto, just watching TV right now.

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

I've got some Dr pepper, I may down the liquid then some Dr pepper or mix it into two drinks. Just don't want to waste it. Sat in the hotel and took my meto, just watching TV right now.

how much dr pepper exactly?

 

[Sickman75]

Will the carbonation effect how this will go?

 

[Suicat]

how much dr pepper exactly?

I've got 2 bottles of 500ml each, took a few sips out of one to take the meto and will have a bit more to take the diazepam.

 

[Sickman75]

Didnt you day you bought some alcohol too?

I've got 2 bottles of 500ml each, took a few sips out of one to take the meto and will have a bit more to take the diazepam.

Didn't you say you were going to go buy some alcohol as well?

 

[Suicat]

How are you feeling right now

Anxious, waiting an hour for the meto (40 mins from now) to kick in and only taken 20mg diazepam at this point, hopefully it'll calm me down and I'll be able to do this, it'll only take a little shove to get past the apprehension behind swallowing such a grim liquid.

 

[Suicat]

Didnt you day you bought some alcohol too?

Didn't you say you were going to go buy some alcohol as well?

Yeah I've got some here but I was going to drink it after the 1.4 BDO due to the liver using the same enzyme to process both

 

[Sickman75]

Anxious, waiting an hour for the meto (40 mins from now) to kick in and only taken 20mg diazepam at this point, hopefully it'll calm me down and I'll be able to do this, it'll only take a little shove to get past the apprehension behind swallowing such a grim liquid.

I know what you mean. I think your really brave to take this on. From what I've read you seem to be determined to make this happen. And did your research really well.

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

allright then


not sure if you will really die but i either wish you a pleasent journey or some nice days of sleep.

 

[Suicat]

Eugh it's disgusting, I really don't know if I can do this

 

[Made4TV]

I took a bit orally to test (2ml) mixed with fruit juice (citrus) and found the taste ok. But I don't know about that quantity. I would follow immediately with strong flavored juice (pineapple, orange or something). I would expect benzos to help with CNS depression but like others have said it's relatively untested except by accident. Still if I try it I will take benzos and alcohol along with meto and zofran ( I'm fortunately prescribed both routinely).

 

[Sickman75]

You don't think you can go through with it because it tastes that bad?

 

[Suicat]

You don't think you can go through with it because it tastes that bad?

The texture is what's currently holding me back and I think the amount of liquid I've created by filling a mug with the 100ml then adding Dr pepper. I'm going to keep trying though, I wouldn't say it's impossible.

 

[Suicat]

You don't think you can go through with it because it tastes that bad?

Texture most likely because I have issues with sensory processing

 

[SLN1096]

I don't understand, I thought these places were supposed to make you better....
Getting help for my problems is the only hope I have in my life and it scares me to think nothing will ever change and I'll have this mindset for the foreseeable future.
Sorry, I'm just thinking out loud. I hope you find peace

 

[Sickman75]

The texture is what's currently holding me back and I think the amount of liquid I've created by filling a mug with the 100ml then adding Dr pepper. I'm going to keep trying though, I wouldn't say it's impossible.

Ooh, I see what you did there. Instead of taking it alone you mixed it up with Dr. Pepper in hopes of masking the flavor but it actually made it worse because now you have just that more left to drink.
Maybe you have to plug your nose or something to cover the taste and texture up?

 

[21Neberg]

I agree with @Sickman75. Close your nose and go. One last unpleasant drink, look at it that way. I hope you manage to chug it and that it works out. Don't be ashamed if you fail, we're always here for you.

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

I don't understand, I thought these places were supposed to make you better....
Getting help for my problems is the only hope I have in my life and it scares me to think nothing will ever change and I'll have this mindset for the foreseeable future.
Sorry, I'm just thinking out loud. I hope you find peace

these places? you mean psych wards?