deathplease
waiting to die
- Feb 16, 2019
- 124
I have decided I will be ctbing tomorrow night. I will be jumping off a cliff that is 100m (330ft) high. I was going to go tonight but realized I need alcohol and drugs to take away my SI. I have unfortunately known 3 people in my city who have died this way, so I don't see why it won't work. I will be catching an early bus, and drink enough before that my state of mind is altered enough that I don't even know what's happening & I'll have enough courage to jump. I'm going to spend one last day with my kitties who I love dearly & spend one last night with my mom who I know will be heartbroken when I pass. I feel the most guilt for leaving them. I can't wait to be with my baby boy and my Grandmother who is waiting for me in heaven. My Grandmother is raising my perfect little boy for me & I just want to be with him. I have appreciated this community so much & I'm so sorry I have to leave all of you guys. Find me in heaven, will ya? We'll have a blast. Peace out, everyone. I hope you all find peace and happiness.
One last question - will I die on impact from that height? I will be hitting concrete. Thanks a bunch, pals.
One last question - will I die on impact from that height? I will be hitting concrete. Thanks a bunch, pals.