Three days ago I started psychiatric treatment and this is the last chance I'm giving myself. I'm going to take advantage of the medication, not to become dependent on it, but to help me do the things that are so difficult when I'm depressed and anxious. These are mainly eating well, exercising, refocusing on my life plans, and learning how to interact in society. All of this is difficult after a traumatic breakup and a life full of emotional difficulties (my story is in a thread posted on this forum https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/my-story-and-my-ctb-plan.215041/). Although I'm not sure it will work, I should try. In any case, I also have a CTB planned in two months, so I have nothing to lose. The medication should be what gives me strength, but it's up to me to take advantage of it and not end up worse and addicted to it. I will document my entire process in this thread. It can be daily or weekly, both the bad days (I hope they are few) and the good days. Wish me luck, as we all know here our problem is not that we want to die, the problem is that we don't want to live in pain.
As for the medication my psychiatrist prescribed, it was:
Clonazepam. It's already showing its first effects; let's say it reduced my anxiety and the emotional burden of overthinking by 70% in the first 16 hours after taking it. From then on, the most difficult hours come until my next dose. It doesn't make you happy or take away my depression, but it helps me feel calmer. I'd say it provides temporary relief.
Fluoxetine and Bupropion Hydrochloride. I've already started taking them, but they should start taking effect after the fourth week, so I'll have to wait.
I hope to get better, I really want to live, but live without pain, I want to be happy.
As for the medication my psychiatrist prescribed, it was:
Clonazepam. It's already showing its first effects; let's say it reduced my anxiety and the emotional burden of overthinking by 70% in the first 16 hours after taking it. From then on, the most difficult hours come until my next dose. It doesn't make you happy or take away my depression, but it helps me feel calmer. I'd say it provides temporary relief.
Fluoxetine and Bupropion Hydrochloride. I've already started taking them, but they should start taking effect after the fourth week, so I'll have to wait.
I hope to get better, I really want to live, but live without pain, I want to be happy.
