Today is my birthday

[FireFox]

Hey everyone today is my birthday. I am now 24 years old. I have failed to have my life together this is biggest reason why I will eventually kill myself. I dont want to see the next 10 years.

I dont feel any joy all I feel is overwhelming disappointment about my how my life turned out be. I wanted to do massive and amazing things with my life once I left school but have achieved nothing with my life since leaving school this is what kills me. Just seeing my classmates having stable jobs, married , children and I have nothing to show for my life since leaving school. I am unemployed with a law degree.

How can celebrate my birthday when I have nothing to show for my life. Never had a job, never been a relationship, never travelled on my own and no massive achievements with my life .
I am still living in the same city I grew up in. I have not progressed at all with my life. I failed to be a real adult. I dont know how to pay bill, still a vrigin which is a reminder of my sexual immaturity ,constantly crying because i have failed.

I am pretending to be happy because it pointless talking to my family how I feel. They actually believe it. My mum brought all these gifts and a cake. People in my life did care but nobody cared enough to listen about how I truly felt and how scared i am. Everyone told me it will all be "fine"

I dont want any presents, I dont want a cake and I dont want a card. All I want is to be happy

 

[MyOwnWorstEnemy]

Hey everyone today is my birthday. I am now 24 years old. I have failed to have my life together this is biggest reason why I will eventually kill myself. I dont want to see the next 10 years.

I dont feel any joy all I feel is overwhelming disappointment about my how my life turned out be. I wanted to do massive and amazing things with my life once I left school but have achieved nothing with my life since leaving school this is what kills me. Just seeing my classmates having stable jobs, married , children and I have nothing to show for my life since leaving school. I am unemployed with a law degree.

I have never had a job, never been in a relationship, never travelled on my own and I am still living in the same city I grew up in. I have not progressed at all with my life. I failed to be a real adult. I dont know how to pay bill, still a vrigin which is a reminder of my sexual immaturity ,constantly crying because i have failed.

I am pretending to be happy because it pointless talking to my family how I feel. They actually believe it. My mum brought all these gifts and a cake. People in my life did care but nobody cared enough to listen about how I truly felt and how scared i am. Everyone told me it will all be "fine"

I dont want any presents, I dont want a cake and I dont want a card. All I want is to be happy

PM'd

 

[SweetDreams500]

Hey everyone today is my birthday. I am now 24 years old. I have failed to have my life together this is biggest reason why I will eventually kill myself. I dont want to see the next 10 years.

I dont feel any joy all I feel is overwhelming disappointment about my how my life turned out be. I wanted to do massive and amazing things with my life once I left school but have achieved nothing with my life since leaving school this is what kills me. Just seeing my classmates having stable jobs, married , children and I have nothing to show for my life since leaving school. I am unemployed with a law degree.

How can celebrate my birthday when I have nothing to show for my life. Never had a job, never been a relationship, never travelled on my own and no massive achievements with my life .
I am still living in the same city I grew up in. I have not progressed at all with my life. I failed to be a real adult. I dont know how to pay bill, still a vrigin which is a reminder of my sexual immaturity ,constantly crying because i have failed.

I am pretending to be happy because it pointless talking to my family how I feel. They actually believe it. My mum brought all these gifts and a cake. People in my life did care but nobody cared enough to listen about how I truly felt and how scared i am. Everyone told me it will all be "fine"

I dont want any presents, I dont want a cake and I dont want a card. All I want is to be happy

Happy birthday. I'm in a similar situation, but I don't have any degree. I know how it feels, it sucks, man

 

[S like Siren]

Happy birthday. Send you love and hugs.
look, in life you can fail. you don't have to be perfect, have a perfect life. sometimes failure can lead to major changes in your life.Give yourself more time to understand what you would like to do with your life(you can always learn how to pay bill,you can find a job) and please don't compare yourself to others, even if it is very difficult not to.I understand your concerns,like verginity,but is ok.The right person for you will not make of this a problem.try to know other people,make new friends.take care of yourself.life is not about to showing to others that you made it,or that you have a perfect life.is more about loving what you do and express themself,doing things that gave us joy,having some good social relationship,passing time with family.

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[KiloCharlieBravo]

Have you thought about studying further (a Masters Degree or PhD for example?) in the meantime or studying for something completely else that you enjoy?

Or what about volunteering at a law firm with the hopes of being offered a job?

24 is too young to say that you have failed.

P.S. My husband was a virgin until 30.

 

[jnpx321]

Happy birthday to you!
I wish you happy

 

[Bat 17]

Happy Birthday @FireFox You are a much valued member of our little community and I hope and believe a brighter future awaits. Do try and enjoy the gifts and cakes, and give yourself a break today

 

[g0921]

I won't say happy birthday.
But congrats for another year closer to the end of your suffers.

 

[WornOutLife]

I guess instead of "Happy B-day" I should tell you something "DECENT B-DAY!".
You know, most of our days can really suck but maybe today you could eat some kind of cake you really love, drink, and do something you like.

We have the rest of all the others days to suffer, just try not to be so hard on yourself today. It's YOUR DAY!

I really hope you can be happy someday. You're a beautiful person.

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[FuneralCry]

I know birthdays can be hard when you feel like this, I feel a similar way towards mine and I dread getting older. This life certainly is hard, and can put us through so much, I wish you well.

 

[PapaSuicide]

Happy birthday!!! Marrie me and be happy!!!

 

[deathgal]

Happy and healthy birthday

 

[Bauhaus]

Jeez, you are only (yes only) 24 y old and consider yourself a failure ??
You have your whole life in front of you and there's plenty of time to look for a job, relationship,....
You have a degree in law so you definitely have achieved something in your life.
Don't be so hard on yourself and I hope you have/had a good birthday.

 

[FireFox]

Jeez, you are only (yes only) 24 y old and consider yourself a failure ??
You have your whole life in front of you and there's plenty of time to look for a job, relationship,....
You have a degree in law so you definitely have achieved something in your life.
Don't be so hard on yourself and I hope you have/had a good birthday.

Thanks
I just feel like my entire life has passed me by. I just feel overwhelmed with all the disappointment.
All I know is once I turn 30 I will end my life as my twenties being bad is massive sign i will have awful future.
I dont deserve to be alive the pandemic has showed me that. Most people who died from covid19 had everything to live espically the doctors and nurses for ie Doctors and nurses were either married, had children and they had a purpose in life which is to heal.

I am someone who doesnt even know their place in the world and have nothing going for me.
I should be the one dying

I guess instead of "Happy B-day" I should tell you something "DECENT B-DAY!".
You know, most of our days can really suck but maybe today you could eat some kind of cake you really love, drink, and do something you like.

We have the rest of all the others days to suffer, just try not to be so hard on yourself today. It's YOUR DAY!

I really hope you can be happy someday. You're a beautiful person.

Hugs and love,

Matt

Thank you
All day I just pretended to be happy and my family actually believe it. My grandmother told me " it is so nice to see you smiling for a change" and my mum said " it is good to see you enjoyed your birthday "
I am eating one of my birthday cakes. My mum brought 3 medicum cakes one is red velvet flavour, carrot cake and white chocolate.

I dont see myself ever being happy again. The future scared me so much and I dont want to see the next 20 years.

I didn't kill myself living in this world killed me. People in my life did care but nobody cared enough to listen to my real fears everyone all said it will be fine. In the end I stopped caring to.
There is nothing for me i this world and I dont belong here.

Have you thought about studying further (a Masters Degree or PhD for example?) in the meantime or studying for something completely else that you enjoy?

Or what about volunteering at a law firm with the hopes of being offered a job?

24 is too young to say that you have failed.

P.S. My husband was a virgin until 30.

I dont feel young at all and I just feel like my entire life has passed me by.
We told by at 18 we are adults and the longer i live past 18 the less younger I feel.
I have lost the will to live and i can't ever see myself being happy.
Living in this world I feel incompetent.
I cant do it compete with hundreds of people for jobs and be the best candidate, creating the image and becoming that attractive woman every man wants and above know finding my place in the world.
I am not strong enough to live in this world and i don't belong here. The signs were always there never fitting in at school, misunderstood by family, unable to relate to women my own age.

Some of us were just not made for living
If I was super attractive, had stable job and a partner who loved me I wouldn't want to kill myself because I know where I belong in this.

 

[meetapple]

I, too, have a law degree and don't have a job. Believe it or not I am twice your age. I was able to avoid getting a job because I got SSI benefits. Now I can only think about the moments when I was in high school or earlier and had my whole life ahead of me. If you want to do something in your life besides law don't put it off because time can fly.