justexisting14

justexisting14

isitoveryet?
Mar 17, 2019
14
Today is my birthday and I want to die... I feel like this is perfect timing. I took off extra days from work including today so I won't feel the anxiety of feeling like I need to be responsible soon. Or I have to show up sonewhere. Now I can focus on getting out of here.
I am truly over life itself.. if there's was a button I could push I would've a long time ago.
I'm 24, working for a law firm and feel like shit. Inside and out. I didn't ask to be on earth. Why do I have to participate. I am drained. I want the end of opportunity, no more expectations from people or any let downs. I am ready to end my existence in the current vessel.
 
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these_days9

these_days9

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Dec 25, 2019
331
I hear you. But for what it's worth, Happy birthday :heart:
 
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randomz

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Nov 4, 2019
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Today is my birthday and I want to die... I feel like this is perfect timing. I took off extra days from work including today so I won't feel the anxiety of feeling like I need to be responsible soon. Or I have to show up sonewhere. Now I can focus on getting out of here.
I am truly over life itself.. if there's was a button I could push I would've a long time ago.
I'm 24, working for a law firm and feel like shit. Inside and out. I didn't ask to be on earth. Why do I have to participate. I am drained. I want the end of opportunity, no more expectations from people or any let downs. I am ready to end my existence in the current vessel.

I am 26 and work at a law firm. I want to end it too mostly due to anxiety from work. I hope you reconsider and find joy in life though. Also, Happy Birthday, this is your day, do something nice for yourself and enjoy your days off.
 
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Jumper Geo

Jumper Geo

Life's a bitch and then you die.
Feb 23, 2020
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Hope you can enjoy your day, present below.

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Brackenshire

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Feb 23, 2020
467
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTEXISTING
 
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catmom13

My brain is broken
Apr 29, 2020
43
It sucks that you feel that way. I hope you are able to use this time off to relax and process what you're feeling.

I understand the constant work anxiety; I have that all the time, some worse than others. Several times this year I've taken multiple days off just because I couldn't get myself to go. You are not alone and I hope you get that.

I hope you find some enjoyment in your birthday and upcoming days off. Unfortunately, there is no button to CTB so you can only take things one at a time for now. If there was, I don't think this forum would exist. Lol.
 
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Venezolana1983

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Jun 11, 2020
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Your post meant something to me . Here for you
I am 26 and work at a law firm. I want to end it too mostly due to anxiety from work. I hope you reconsider and find joy in life though. Also, Happy Birthday, this is your day, do something nice for yourself and enjoy your days off.
I had anxiety once . It's horrible !
 
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MeriDeath

MeriDeath

Im on the edge of reality
May 10, 2020
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Today is my birthday and I want to die... I feel like this is perfect timing. I took off extra days from work including today so I won't feel the anxiety of feeling like I need to be responsible soon. Or I have to show up sonewhere. Now I can focus on getting out of here.
I am truly over life itself.. if there's was a button I could push I would've a long time ago.
I'm 24, working for a law firm and feel like shit. Inside and out. I didn't ask to be on earth. Why do I have to participate. I am drained. I want the end of opportunity, no more expectations from people or any let downs. I am ready to end my existence in the current vessel.
I wish you a happy happy birthday, in spite of everything you're going through.
Live is a hell indeed. We are not asked to be born but we have to, I love the fact we can end our lives with a bit of help and motivation. Think about it, I hope you do the right choice and try to look at tho ga differently meanwhile.
 
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sadghost

sadghost

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May 17, 2020
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Happy Birthday! :happy: I'm glad you can get some time off. I hope you can get some relief from your struggles today, which I am so sorry to hear about.
 
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MZALA

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Feb 7, 2020
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Happy birthday to you.
 
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mathieu

mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
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Happy birthday!
 
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Circles

Visionary
Sep 3, 2018
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However the day may go hope you have you a tolerable birthday and week. If anything try to rest if you can to get through the day(s) easier. Peace to you.
 
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Torbasco

Torbasco

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Jun 10, 2020
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Neither of us might be here for long, for better or for worse. But just here and now, happy birthday bud.
 
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Brink

Brink

Exhausted. RadHomo.
Feb 11, 2020
625
I'm sorry for your struggles @justexisting14 :hug: I feel you. HBD to you and may you have a peaceful day.
 
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PureMetanoia

PureMetanoia

Member
May 28, 2020
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Interestingly enough - or, rather, yet another cruel joke life plays on those of us who desire to reject it - birthday people, specifically birthday boys, are more likely to commit suicide on their "special day".

But maybe feeling a little more connected now to the global reality of birthdays being tough on people like us might make you feel a little less... lonely in your pain and exhaustion with it all? In any case: happy birthday and do feast on some mind-numbingly delicious cake!

Source: https://econtent.hogrefe.com/doi/10.1027/0227-5910/a000067
 
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SpottedPanda

SpottedPanda

I'm all about coffee and cigarettes
Jul 24, 2019
612
Happy birthday might seem a bit redundant to say, but I wish you whatever pleasure you can find.

It seems to be the one day where selfishness is encouraged, so gorge yourself on your favourite food, watch whatever pleases you, and I hope you have a somewhat enjoyable experience, despite all.

If there was a switch on my temple, a thing I often fantasise about, I would 100% be gone now. I guess we'll have to go through the process of researching other methods.
 
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Close_to_freedom

Close_to_freedom

Why the long face? Cause I don’t wanna live here.
May 19, 2020
418
Happy Birthday by Voltaire. Good song
 
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BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

Wise woman and Celtic sky person
Mar 7, 2020
991
Even though you are going through some things at this moment. I want to say Happy Birthday to you. Do something nice for yourself today!! 1591873860971
 
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K-O

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Apr 16, 2020
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