Today I tried on a rope

[blurryface]

Today it was my first time touching the rope I got awhile ago. I tied a slip knot and tried it around my neck to see how it felt. It was strangely calming and I was not at all scared. Is that weird?

I'm thinking of practicing a few times before attempting partial.

 

[Ash]

Not at all weird. That's how I felt.

 

[blurryface]

Is

Not at all weird. That's how I felt.

It felt nice knowing I had a way out, and I felt prepared. Is that how you would ctb too?

 

[Ash]

Is

It felt nice knowing I had a way out, and I felt prepared. Is that how you would ctb too?

Yeah, I think so

 

[alone4evr]

That's how my husband killed himself last year, but he used an electrical cord, not a rope. I only hope he felt that kind of peace you described.

 

[TheHatedOne]

You're lucky man, when I tried to do full hanging first time ever and put the rope around my neck fear overwhelmed me and I felt like throwing up.