Today I took one more step

[BuranaPoe]

I just want to vent...
Today I felt really bad, shit, it's been a while since I felt like this, I thought I was coming out of my depression but I was just ignoring what I felt, I'm not capable of being a functional person, every stressful situation frustrates me and I can't handle everything the bad thing that happens to me... today I wrote a couple of farewell letters, I'm going to perfect them and I think they will be the final ones... I pray not to wake up the next morning.

 

[kunikuzushi]

It's so difficult to be a functional person in this world. It's not your fault. The world is so cruel and it makes sense to not be able to handle it. but I'm really sorry you're feeling so bad.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I just want to vent...
Today I felt really bad, shit, it's been a while since I felt like this, I thought I was coming out of my depression but I was just ignoring what I felt, I'm not capable of being a functional person, every stressful situation frustrates me and I can't handle everything the bad thing that happens to me... today I wrote a couple of farewell letters, I'm going to perfect them and I think they will be the final ones... I pray not to wake up the next morning.

I honestly believe that some of us are just not meant to be here. We can't function properly and fit into this dreadful world, no matter how hard we try.
This sick society and predatory system of nature is so alien to us that we are truly horrified to be here.
I'm so sorry you are going through this and hope you find peace in whatever you decide to do.

 

[Fktw0rld]

That's all you can do. I'm not sure it's even humanly possible to find motivation and excitement for our own suffering and death. Just one tired and exhausted step at a time. All we can do is hope for a natural ending, at best. It's like being stranded in the desert with no food or water and seeing signs of life and lights not far over the horizon. We hold on to that mustard seed of hope and dig down deep to push a little farther. But the further we walk, the further away the lights get.

 

[Owl_07]

So sorry you're feeling so bad, it's so unbearable and it's not your fault... May you find peace whatever your choice will be, hope you'll finally get some rest

 

[Yamillie]

your so brave, i wish you have the most peaceful last moments in the release of all of the bad <3

 

[MrDarkness]

Writing goodbye letters I always feel at peace when doing so, I hope life turns around and I hope your able to find peace in life or death. Life is shit ik

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence certainly is just so cruel and it's really understandable just wishing to never wake again, there is just too much suffering in existing but anyway I wish you the best.

 

[BuranaPoe]

Muchas gracias a todos los que se tomaron la molestia de responder, no esperaba tanta comprensión, muchas gracias