Discussion To those who recovered. How is life after recovery?

[Josh007]

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[Lady Laudanum]

Haven't recovered yet but I think I'm going in the right direction.

Last month I tried to CTB and ended up in the psych ward for 10 days. Now I'm in school for a degree that I really want to pursue, got a job I really like, and for the first time in years I have hope that maybe I'll be able to live a normal life instead of resorting to CTB. However, I'm not out of the woods yet. I'm only 1 crisis away from going off the deep end again.

 

[Todsünde]

I don't think my recovery will ever be finished. I'm somewhat chronically suicidal since early childhood and the ptsd symptoms are always there for almost 20 years now. I don't think that I'll ever recover in the sense of not having those things that torture me in my head anymore but I know for sure I can learn to live with it since I'm doing it for so long by now.
I'm actually fine with this and I even think there is this 0.01% chance that I might even overcome all this bs in my head but accepting that it might never happen gives me quite some peace.
I will always have those moments I crash and that's ok too. Recovery for me isn't smth that is done at one point but a constant battle in which fallbacks are normal and the only thing that matters is to get up every time I fall.

 

[Sadgirl121]

Recovery In my opinion is a life long journey, yes you will have times when everything finally goes right, but then the unexpected happens. It's not something that will happen overnight, but it can happen over time, but no, I don't believe recovery will ever be over.