I so want my life to have some semblance of normality and give me a reason to live. In my mind I don't think I am deserving of such a life. To live without those I love is crippling. One person could change so much for me. I'm not a kid, I'm 58. Today was gonna be the day but reasons mean I cannot as I would be letting someone down again. I don't intend to do that. Is CTB still on option? Very much so and a week is neither here or there. Within in myself I still have doubts about having a future. Yes one person could make a huge difference. At the moment my mind always turns back to death. In some ways the next seven days will decide my fate. I had therapy today, which helps with my BPD but the one element that remains is suicide. Thank you for listening.
existence can be cruel. i hope you find relief, whichever path you choose to take.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 45,046
Whether you choose to live or die, I hope that you are able to find relief from your suffering. We should not have to endure so much pain in our lives. Best wishes.
hellispink
poisonous
- May 26, 2022
- 1,231
I also have BDP. It is indeed very difficult to live in this situation. I think that if there is doubts, we can hang out until we figure out completely what is the best decision to make
I have everything else under control apart this one thing. You have my sympathy and I wish you luck with your BPD
london3
Banned Scammer
- May 5, 2022
- 584
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I wish you a stress free life and hope you find peace soon.
