homesoon.
i̶t̶'̶s̶ ̶n̶i̶c̶e̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶b̶e̶ ̶b̶a̶c̶k̶.̶
- Apr 15, 2024
- 83
I feel defective or broken.
I feel as though I am incapable of reading a fucking room in a way that doesn't make me feel like an idiot in the end.
I feel as though I end up pushing everyone away, no matter how hard I try to be honest and sincere.
I feel as though I keep being self-destructive and fucking up the relationships I try to make work.
I feel so fucking sick of it.
I feel so sick of fucking trying.
I feel like every day, I get a smudge closer to just being fucking done with it.
I feel sick of trying to be myself and every moment just not feeling enough,
I feel sick of doing this over and over and over and over.
I am tired of others hurting me.
I am tired of hurting myself.
I feel as though I am incapable of reading a fucking room in a way that doesn't make me feel like an idiot in the end.
I feel as though I end up pushing everyone away, no matter how hard I try to be honest and sincere.
I feel as though I keep being self-destructive and fucking up the relationships I try to make work.
I feel so fucking sick of it.
I feel so sick of fucking trying.
I feel like every day, I get a smudge closer to just being fucking done with it.
I feel sick of trying to be myself and every moment just not feeling enough,
I feel sick of doing this over and over and over and over.
I am tired of others hurting me.
I am tired of hurting myself.