byec560
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- May 11, 2026
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Just thinking today because I feel like every woman I'm in contact with is constantly talking about how much they hate men, and then I look around and see how much men are also bitter at women. I read a stat recently that such and such percent of women say that they have a negative impression of men. I always feel like I'm on the backfoot to prove that I'm one of "the good ones," but even then I know that I will never be trusted the same way and I always feel that I'm one fuckup away from being permanently hated. So many people I talk to say something to me along the lines of "Oh, I would want to date because I wanna fuck but I hate the idea of having to put effort into caring about someone other than myself :/" A couple of my friends legit got hate crimed recently just for being gay. It all feels so senseless.
Job applications are just a constant cycle. In higher ed right now and academia is just one long string of opportunities to pay for the privilege of doing free labor for people. And if you do, maybe you will have an opportunity to pay them again to do more free work! Nearly cried today because I just can't get money for an expensive project that I'm doing for FREE. They can't even toss me a few bucks even though I'm being their bitch. And if I publish this paper or whatever, what on earth could it possibly fucking be in the service of? Nothing! Moving soon, and what does that do for me? Nothing! Constantly doing favors for people who secretly have nothing but contempt and condescension for me. Guess what that's gotten me? Nothing!
Everything in life is just a constant uphill battle and I just can't hack the competition. I can't stand the idea of competing for a woman (it's a gross-sounding way to put it, I know, but it's close to the reality) and then constantly having to worry about being good enough (I'm not) otherwise she'll get bored and leave for someone else. Men praying on your downfall so that way they can just use that woman's body to basically masturbate into. Competing for jobs so I can compete for more jobs so I can do more work for people that don't give a single fuck about me. You work and work and work and you think that at some point people might feel gratitude, or at least pity you. But of course it will never fucking happen. The second you fuck up however? Now, that's big news and they'll take notice of that for sure. The world is just one big factory designed to maximize misery. It sucks.
Edit: Just re-read this and this rant is mega incoherent so sorry friends lol.
Job applications are just a constant cycle. In higher ed right now and academia is just one long string of opportunities to pay for the privilege of doing free labor for people. And if you do, maybe you will have an opportunity to pay them again to do more free work! Nearly cried today because I just can't get money for an expensive project that I'm doing for FREE. They can't even toss me a few bucks even though I'm being their bitch. And if I publish this paper or whatever, what on earth could it possibly fucking be in the service of? Nothing! Moving soon, and what does that do for me? Nothing! Constantly doing favors for people who secretly have nothing but contempt and condescension for me. Guess what that's gotten me? Nothing!
Everything in life is just a constant uphill battle and I just can't hack the competition. I can't stand the idea of competing for a woman (it's a gross-sounding way to put it, I know, but it's close to the reality) and then constantly having to worry about being good enough (I'm not) otherwise she'll get bored and leave for someone else. Men praying on your downfall so that way they can just use that woman's body to basically masturbate into. Competing for jobs so I can compete for more jobs so I can do more work for people that don't give a single fuck about me. You work and work and work and you think that at some point people might feel gratitude, or at least pity you. But of course it will never fucking happen. The second you fuck up however? Now, that's big news and they'll take notice of that for sure. The world is just one big factory designed to maximize misery. It sucks.
Edit: Just re-read this and this rant is mega incoherent so sorry friends lol.
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