people are so nasty lately. if you make even a small mistake, they'll jump on you, one after the other, to make sure you "learn your lesson." if you're autistic, you're not considered a person at all - the double empathy problem makes it so that neurotypicals will never be able to relate to you, nor consider you on the same level of human.
every time I put myself out there, maybe even make a friend, it falls apart. they realize I'm not as put together as I make myself out to be; they slowly shut me out for reasons I can't discern. it's not because of mental illness because I've long stopped showing any signs of mental illness to new people. I just suffer alone, but even that doesn't solve it. I've become scared of meeting people because this happens every time, over and over.
I don't want to die but I can't keep living like this. really wish I had bought SN when it was still readily available.
every time I put myself out there, maybe even make a friend, it falls apart. they realize I'm not as put together as I make myself out to be; they slowly shut me out for reasons I can't discern. it's not because of mental illness because I've long stopped showing any signs of mental illness to new people. I just suffer alone, but even that doesn't solve it. I've become scared of meeting people because this happens every time, over and over.
I don't want to die but I can't keep living like this. really wish I had bought SN when it was still readily available.
