yeah so this is a shitty post where I am Very Mad about things so read it or don't, but I need a place to spew my bullshit so here I am
If I am to be employed for a company that I don't give a shit about, to complete a task that I don't give a shit about, then literally all I fucking want is an environment where I am to be allowed to be left alone to do my fucking job
but that is certainly too much to ask for. there's always someone, something, to constantly fuck with you and test your limits until you can no longer effectively do your job or you walk out. why is it that in order to survive I have to just tolerate being treated like shit? either some fucking stooge who believes themselves to be entitled to an elite position above everyone else, at the cost of anyone who they percieve to be a threat, or some prick manager who lords their power above everyone and nitpicks petty shit and pushes all of your buttons and fucks with you in every. possible. fucking. way. At the cost of the fucking company! their power trip is more important than actually running shit in an efficient, sustainable, profitable way!! imagine that!! wowie
I'm good at what I do. pretty much any place I go, I learn very fast and am usually quick to become one of, if not the best, worker. I like feeling productive, and I like being proficient at what I do. If I'm going to be stuck doing somr bullshit meaningless job, I may as well be good at it right? well it doesn't fucking matter because I never was good at sucking off the correct people in charge or knocking down any person who threatens my fucking ego, that's not where my talent lies. I can't do that shit. I'm a fucking grunt and that's fine by me, just leave me the fuck alone because I know how to do my job!!! fuck!!
I'm so mad I'm so mad I've been working so hard to manage my anxiety and keep my sanity at a reasonable level so that I can function, and I really felt like I was making progress. and now here I am, back to square one because of this little fucking pussy that gets his kicks from passive aggressively fucking with everyone, treating us as prisoners (rather than professionals who are there by choice), and threatening us over stupid bullshit.it's bullshit, it's fucking BULLSHIT, I've seen 4 girls cry because of his shit (5 if you include myself) because I guess we're easier for this fucking prick to target. just bitch at all the weak little girls, you big fucking man.
he's constantly watching us through cameras from the safety of his desk, and bitching at the poor supervisor via email whenever he doesn't like what we're doing. What doesn't he like us doing? Well, for example: looking out the window, or literally anything besides the screen in front of us; daring to speak to anybody sitting next to you while you are in between calls, or listening to answering machines for hours on end; reading a fucking book while listening to answering machines for hours on end; getting up to take a piss; being 30 seconds late from your break; breathing. god he's such a fucking cunt FUCKING cunt jesus christ
anyway I feel a little better now. lovely weather we're having, everything is covered in ice. I need to get my fucking head straight, I feel out of control