Thoughts on sites like Martin Manley’s?

[everlastinghistory]

The first person who gave me the idea to create my own website to leave a record of everything was Sol Pais. I later found out about a guy who did something similar to her, over her, which was Ben Goodspeed. The most infamous of these websites however has to be Martin Manley's. Especially since he directly said that he would kill himself and it wasn't just a regular online journal.

I've considered creating something like this as a sort of "series of love letters" to a certain girl as well as a full explanation of why I thought suicide was the best decision. All of this is for her because I'm afraid if I don't do it and don't give her a full explanation she'll blame herself.

While considering this idea I've seen many people call all 3 websites I previously mentioned "disturbing" simply for being remnants of a person who died. Is it actually that disturbing to leave a public suicide note? I feel like I'm looking at it from a bias perspective because I want to do it. What do you guys think about these types of websites?

 

[Tobacco]

I feel like I want to replicate my biographical threads (which I haven't written) in this site in a blog. Or start writing a diary and then make it available once I ctb.

 

[everlastinghistory]

I feel like I want to replicate my biographical threads (which I haven't written) in this site in a blog. Or start writing a diary and then make it available once I ctb.

I have everything saved on a Google doc and plan to put it all on a website the day before. If you're looking for a platform other than this one to post on I'd recommend making a neocities site. It only requires basic knowledge of html and the only guidelines for websites is to not break laws. So as long as you're not in violation any laws… It's all good. Won't get taken down.

 

[Tobacco]

Btw can you give me a link to Ben Goodspeed's material? You piqued my couriosity. I could find some stuff about Sol Pais.

 

[PoisonousPotato]

i will put some stuff that i made on minecraft on youtube, maybe with some quick biographical elements and comments about right to die. ik it sounds incredibly stupid and pathetic, but i just want to leave a trace of a minuscule part of the disorganised creativity i had in my life

 

[everlastinghistory]

Btw can you give me a link to Ben Goodspeed's material? You piqued my couriosity. I could find some stuff about Sol Pais.

Here's a link to his blog. http://bengoodspeed.blogspot.com/p/about-this-journalblog.html?m=1

 

[pickajack]

The part I find disturbing is that you're considering making this public, but it's centered around and directed to a specific person. That seems extra traumatizing as this person has not consented to being part of this at all. Maybe leave any mention/information about her out.