Thoughts of death

[Nem]

Right now and as of late my thoughts on dying have been so strong it's stupid that I'm still alive! I'm barely sleeping, don't feel like eating much, have been trying to get on the darknet but have had huge problems since I've been using a smartphone and supposedly a laptop or desk top is better suited for that.
I've been plagued by huge regrets that constantly bombard my brain, mainly regret taking shitty meds that only made things much worse. Regret being with my ex that turned out to be a sociopath with anger issues and minimal if any empathy. My living situation is not good right now, I share a house and my friend has been short tempered with me and in a way that's good but only if I am successful in ctb.
Holy crap things are bad, something is really wrong and I need to end things quickly
Peace/hugs

 

[Ghost2211]

I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time. If you need someone to talk to please reach out. It sounds like you are in a very toxic environment. Is there any potential of going anywhere else?

 

[Nem]

I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time. If you need someone to talk to please reach out. It sounds like you are in a very toxic environment. Is there any potential of going anywhere else?

Thanks! The only place I think I can go is in the ground. It's just I can't function anymore and my life is going downhill and I didn't think it could get much worse
Peace/hugs

 

[MysticPerception]

Sorry to hear your feeling like that but I understand the feeling. It can be really overwhelming with how much you think about it and think I need to just do it already and get it done so I can leave this all behind already. I haven't thought about getting on the darknet with a phone but I assume you could do it still. Hang in there, you're really strong for being able to keep functioning despite those thoughts attacking you.

 

[Cutepoison]

I feel the same way. For me, death is freedom. I can't wait to check out

 

[BPD Barbie]

I use tor browser to get onto empire market and darknetlive while on my smartphone. Always works ok.
Sorry you're having a rough time lately. You know my DMs are always open for you

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Sad to hear your situation Nem. I know what it's like to feel so desperate all the time. You can pm me too if you wish, happy to listen.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear about your situation. I had times of brain fog and just pure dysfunction as well due to being really down and upset. I hope you are able to function enough to either recover or find peace.

 

[Thereisnothing]

Thanks! The only place I think I can go is in the ground. It's just I can't function anymore and my life is going downhill and I didn't think it could get much worse
Peace/hugs

@Nem sending big, squishy hugs your way (((((((((((((Nem))))))))))))))) xx

 

[terry_a_davis]

I imagine dying peacefully by N ingestion everyday usually in the morning just after i've just woken up realizing i'm still in this shitty life instead of my dream.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I feel so bad for you. I'm here.