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Dizzylady80

Dizzylady80

Experienced
Nov 5, 2020
226
I don't really have a place irl to vent my suicidal thoughts, and I've noticed that if I can't talk them through then they get much more serious and I start seriously planning my death. I do think this website is bad for recovery and keeps the mind on suicide (you are the company you keep, etc.) but I'm just not in a place where recovery is possible rn. I do plan on leaving this website if/when that becomes available to me, and I plan on killing myself if that doesn't become an option, but for now it serves as a distraction, a place with good people to talk to, and a means of preventing an impulsive death. I'm curious as to why other people are on here; is anyone else in a similar situation?
 
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Echo

Echo

Hell is empty and all the devils are here
Dec 1, 2022
505
Initially it was to look up suicide methods only. I've been into chat a few times and people have been welcoming it helps just to have somewhere to talk freely with people who understand.
 
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Dizzylady80

Dizzylady80

Experienced
Nov 5, 2020
226
Initially it was to look up suicide methods only. I've been into chat a few times and people have been welcoming it helps just to have somewhere to talk freely with people who understand.
That's why I initially joined, I wasn't interested in talking at all. Now that I'm a bit more stable I'm mostly in the chat
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
3,600
That's why I initially joined, I wasn't interested in talking at all. Now that I'm a bit more stable I'm mostly in the chat

Slf joind jst fr methds & dd nt hve intentn 2 tlk wth or cnnct 2 n.e1

Tht wrkd out wll
 
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purplehearted

SN re ordered! 🥲
Nov 21, 2022
116
I mostly agree, this website is a bad place if you want to get better and focus on recovering. It's too tempting to look at the suicide discussion page instead of the recovery page when you're at a depressive point. I'm in a similar boat, mostly joined bc i couldn't freely express my suicidal thoughts which i NEED to do or i will spiral, and also found everyone else's perspectives interesting. Also joined to research different methods and prepare myself when things became too bad. But yeah if you're set on recovery you should defs leave the site

But in saying that i found some really great people here that i understand and who understand me, so in a way this website kept me around longer.
 
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Himalayan

Himalayan

"Wake up to reality, nothing ever goes as planned"
Sep 30, 2022
422
I see this site as crying. If you cry for a while things get better, but if you cry all day, you're not doing anything.
Sometimes i say serious shit about mental health, but ppl think i am joking, or trolling.
I made a lot of bad decisions even when i didn't use this site, my mind just doesn't work well when depressed.
I would hate leaving this site and things i like, just because it's "unhealthy".

I think i actually cope well whit mental health(not in the past), it's just my circumstances that fuck it up... And some people here help me have hope.

I don't get some of you guys point, "if you want to recover you should leave". Why? You guys said it, you were spiralling down because you couldn't express yourself.
 
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Echo

Echo

Hell is empty and all the devils are here
Dec 1, 2022
505
That's why I initially joined, I wasn't interested in talking at all. Now that I'm a bit more stable I'm mostly in the chat
Glad to hear you are stable right now dizzy lady. Hopefully I will see you in chat sometime
 
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Someone123

Illuminated
Oct 19, 2021
3,874
A fair number of people have recovered with help from people on this site, I don't think that it is bad for recovery necessarily, it depends on the person- obviously the fix the 26 people started because they had college age kids, generally, who could have recovered with the right help, so it's a tough problem- peopel who have reall hope should be helped, the right resources will help a lot of people under age thirty. They may want to sconsider suicide prevention programs at colleges across the country. I am not against them exactly, it is such a tough probelm- how to you help those who still have real hope and let others achieve peace somehow?
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,728
I don't even know why I'm still on here, it isn't like this website could ever really be beneficial. I wish that this website with all of the endless method threads could be replaced with the option of a legalised peaceful exit where we can just voluntarily exit without having to struggle so much in planning to die. It's tragic how suicide is so incredibly stigmatised in a world filled with endless torment and suffering.
 
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henikova

Member
Dec 19, 2022
43
It is the least toxic social media platform. ( I'm not joking. )
 
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nifii

Aaaaaaaaaahhhh
Dec 19, 2021
60
I'm here because i'm done with being in limbo for multiple years. I actually want to amplify my suicidal thoughts because i'm done with trying to improve my life.
 
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