This suffering is crushing, but I'm determined to keep going! Anyone else feel similar? Respect either way.

[Praying 4 a Miracle]

Like many in SaSu, I'm suffering to the point now where I'm starting to lose all hope of recovery. And yet, I feel determined to keep going and try. Does anyone else relate to feeling this way? Total respect no matter how you respond to this question.

 

[etherealspring]

i cant say the same for myself, but i respect u immensely, ur very brave and far stronger than i am. wishing you the best

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

In my opinion, it's survival instinct which is in our DNA, hence why people struggle to kill themselves (go through with it), because although they are desperate to end their suffering, the survival instinct is stronger. It sucks. Just my take on it.

 

[SilentSadness]

I don't, to me life is just a big mess that's difficult to get out of, full of frustrating problems that should not exist. Anyway that's nice for you, good luck. I hope you don't get mistreated by others, and you don't have to suffer more.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Yes. I've been trying to just get through the day for the last eight years, clinging to life's small joys. I don't know how many more I have left in me, but I keep trudging along.

 

[kyuuketsuki]

I just take it day by day. some days i think "i can't do this anymore." well, nearly every day. but i'm trying to hang in there for someone who needs me. (no pun intended)
i'm not sure if i really can keep holding on, but i'm doing my best for now. it's so painful though. some days i will plan everything out and then just... restrain myself, i guess.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

The same thing doesn't apply to me since my issues are inherent to life itself with death being the only cure. No amount of trying in life can ease my suffering since my pain is caused by factors outside of my control. Not to mention that, even if I wasn't suffering, I still wouldn't want to stay alive because of the philosophical idea that an earlier death is always better than a later death

 

[ladylazarus4]

I mean this with all respect. If you're trying to recover, SaSu might make it more difficult. That's my experience at least. I wish you all the best, and I hope things improve for you.

 

[avalon_]

I mean this with all respect. If you're trying to recover, SaSu might make it more difficult. That's my experience at least. I wish you all the best, and I hope things improve for you.

Oh shit, what painting is that detail from?

 

[ladylazarus4]

Oh shit, what painting is that detail from?

To be honest, I didn't know when I picked it out (you're talking about my profile picture, right?) but I looked it up and it is "Eve" by Hendrick Goltzius.

 

[A Dream of a Dream]

This still feels like it should be in the recovery forum.

 

[Praying 4 a Miracle]

The same thing doesn't apply to me since my issues are inherent to life itself with death being the only cure. No amount of trying in life can ease my suffering since my pain is caused by factors outside of my control. Not to mention that, even if I wasn't suffering, I still wouldn't want to stay alive because of the philosophical idea that an earlier death is always better than a later death

I do find your philosophical idea very interesting. I never really thought about it that way. It's very true that the medical industry is keeping us alive way beyond our prime years. I as well am not convinced that this is necessarily a good thing. It may be good for a select few who make all the way through to the end and stay healthy, but for the vast majority this will definitely not be the case.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I feel like this thread should be moved to the recovery section...

Also, I'm not determined to recover. Life is kind of just meh and I've honestly had enough of it. I'd prefer to die a peaceful death over being alive.

 

[JustAnx]

I think that OP might have an agenda. I wouldn't say that it is an ill intentioned one (quite the contrary). But i think honesty is something we need to have here.