Venting this month

[MicahBell]

i'm so lucky to be near the city.

i'm hoping i'll muster up my courage by April 25th. I'm tired of living my life never knowing when my last day will be, i'm trying not to think about it. I don't have many hopes or aspirations. Theres nothing i want to get done before i go, maybe make somebody's day a little better. 15 days is enough.

i can treat myself a little better. buy myself a nice drink. Gives me time to experience the April rain.

Then on Friday the 25th i'll walk into the city, which i probably shouldn't name, and go 40 stories to the top of a certain building. I don't know if i'll write a note, i don't have much to say. But maybe i'll write my last wishes. i'll fold it and put it in a ziplock bag in my picket. I'm going to wear a mask as well, if i can find one that won't come off when i'm falling. If i'm going to traumatise people when i hit the ground i at least want there to be that impersonal feeling because they can't see my face.

i just hope i don't regret it when i see the virw from halfway down <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[sanction]

I'm also thinking to end it around a similar date / week

All the best to you. How are you feeling now?