Yes, you are right. The existence of life really is such a horrific thing, I mean all of the pain and cruelty that exists in this world is undeniable and will continue to exist as long as life is brought here. It's a burden being trapped in the prison that is consciousness, it's a curse to have to experience this existence, we only exist just to deteriorate and eventually die.
No amount of words could really describe my dislike towards life, it's always better to not exist but of course never being born is the best thing possible. Non existence is the ideal state, as with awareness there will inevitably be suffering. It's tragic how life continues to be brought here, I mean as humans we were all perfectly fine not existing until we were forced to endure this life.