Gosh I know exactly how you feel. Nobody ever realizes how soul crushing that feeling is.
Not enjoying things hurts it really does. You tell someone that and they just say " Oh have you tried abc" and its like "No literally nothing is fun. Not a thing." Its like in a world filled with flavor everything just taste like unsalted boiled potatoes.
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Yes! That's a really good analogy & the thing is I used to be interested in SO many things & get excited about literally the smallest things- like I didn't have to grand adventures or anything - but also I was not the kind of person that could handle just going to work, gym, beers & watch tv or something- I always needed to be & did take in as much culture as I could - art, films, music, history, science, books, records, food (from around the world), nature, comedy, etc all these things gave me SO much joy & apprecition for life - it's gone- totally gone! I can't belive it - this must be up there in the most severe type of breakdown a person can ever have. Time to ctb :(