Story This is so annoying

[Yomyom]

When I finished my study we were 43 students, with no exception everyone but me actually build himself a life, it's so annoying they didn't do anything for it and their happiness just came to them on a plate.
They had a loving family and no mental health issues, something I could only dream of.

I'm so mad, they don't even start to understand how lucky they are, how grateful they should be everyday

I tried so hard to fix my damn life, took me 12 years to finally understand that nothing is going to change, no matter how much I'll try, no matter how much I'll pray

Around two months ago my brother was completed the first step to be an officer in my country, so there was a big event that my to celebrate it and there was a thousands of people there, they all looked so alive, so proud and so happy.
I was so jealous in them, so much

I don't understand how I got to this point, I just don't.
I saw pictures of me when I was 8, I don't really have a happy time in my life, but this defently was the best in my life, I just wish it would have been end there from a cancer or other bloody Disease

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I envy people who were handed a good life on a silver plate but it's definitely not the majority. Most have just normal boring lives with hardships and bad things sprinkled here and there. But they still have good times and enjoy life from time to time. They are not aware that personal hell is only as far as one unfortunate event.
Let them enjoy their lives.

 

[Yomyom]

I envy people who were handed a good life on a silver plate but it's definitely not the majority. Most have just normal boring lives with hardships and bad things sprinkled here and there. But they still have good times and enjoy life from time to time. They are not aware that personal hell is only as far as one unfortunate event.
Let them enjoy their lives.

I get it, but I want this boring normal life, with normal problems.
Sounds like a dream to me

 

[Yomyom]

Did you have to do military service? I have heard that it is mandatory in your country.

After several conversations with the military social worker, I was exempted from a mental clause