Venting This is my facial expression 24/7

[HadItAll]

At work, with friends, with family. Someone cracks a joke, everyone laughs, but my face doesn't change and the only thought in my mind is about how over my life is. Very hard to talk to people in my daily life without sounding like a CTBer.

 

[bigdog]

It is not that bad trust me

 

[HadItAll]

It is not that bad trust me

Nope, bro it's over.

 

[Iva]

At work, with friends, with family. Someone cracks a joke, everyone laughts, but my face doesn't change and the only thought in my mind is about how over my life is. Very hard to talk to people in my daily life without sounding like a CTBer.

I relate to this a lot. It's so difficult nowadays to not bring the conversation to death or make jokes about suicide. I'm always using my CTB as a coping mechanism in my brain. constantly telling myself "no need to get upset-- it'll all be over soon."

Sometimes I can't help but slip up and bring up the one thing on this world that brings me true solace.

 

[Source Energy]

I feel the way that facial expression depicts all the time too. But I work with customers, and I learned to fake a perfect cheerful smile. Inside I am dead. I'm just becoming a really good actress...

 

[Unending]

I relate. It seems like every time I look in the mirror, I look like I saw something distressing moments before.

 

[downndone2]

Me too, I wear a mask usually but my emptiness is in my eyes too

 

[SenseOfLoss]

Yea, my charisma is also extinguished....