This is it

[NightmareTour]

This is the push I needed. I tried everything and they fucked it up. No point waiting for withdrawals when I have to cold turkey my meds, if none of this gets resolved I'm doing it tonight.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm sorry to hear you will leaving us so soon.

I wish you lots of love and eternal peace.

 

[iwanttodie000]

I hope that things work out and can get things resolved. But if you choose to go, I wish you a pleasant and peaceful journey.

 

[Endeavour]

I hope you get things resolved.

 

[Blue Rose]

I have liked you so much, then I felt sadness for your severe pain. Just I wish you would be fine or peaceful before tomorrow.

 

[Brink]

This is shitty to hear. I feel sorry after all the effort you were making and the fact that things seemed to be somewhat moving forward with services.

I guess it was short-lived!?!

All the best to you @NightmareTour; I hope you can resolve this and don't act impulsively, although I appreciate you're fed up with their inconsistencies and shortcomings. X

 

[grungeCat]

I'm sorry things turned out this way. As an experienced drug addict I can say that there's no worse thing than cold turkey. If there was a hell, I would say withdrawal is how it feels like. Considering it doesn't exist at all, I hope you'll get the peace and relief from pain you deserve.

 

[Sherri]

I wish you good luck and may you resolve the issues that are causing that pain. If you decide to leave, may it be painless.

 

[Cakes]

I hope the issue gets resolve! I'm sorry you're dealing with so much, I was hoping it was going well. Sending you all the best

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

You shouldn't have to cold turkey your medication. Is there an online pharmacy in your country? Depending on the medications sometimes you can get an online prescription and have them sent via expedited shipping. Either way, it is reckless that they left you in such a state and having to suffer from withdrawals. You don't deserve to be in this pain. I am so sorry.

 

[NightmareTour]

I've been given the impression that, after 3 hours of being sent in circles because nobody had any record of me even being assessed (last record was from after an attempt last year) it has been sorted out. No meds tonight, but I'm giving the benefit of the doubt that I'll be able to get them tomorrow. This is an absolute final chance. If I can't get my meds tomorrow, or if I don't hear back about any kind of further care within a week, I'm done. They did tell me I'd get a call when my medication ran out. A week seems less impulsive, but I'm not going cold turkey.

Also not having my meds for just one night is making my double vision go crazy. It seems that when I miss one of my other medications (or the lamotrigine), my lamotrigine side effects amplify. Weird reaction, definitely not something I'm living through on top of withdrawals.

 

[CallOfTheVoid112]

This is the push I needed. I tried everything and they fucked it up. No point waiting for withdrawals when I have to cold turkey my meds, if none of this gets resolved I'm doing it tonight.

I understand as a current addict when I get sick i literally feel like ctb. That's how bad the withdrawal is for me.

 

[NightmareTour]

I understand as a current addict when I get sick i literally feel like ctb. That's how bad the withdrawal is for me.

I've quit two drug habits, if the legal ones are just as bad as the illegal ones I'm not shooting for a third

 

[rs929]

I've quit two drug habits, if the legal ones are just as bad as the illegal ones I'm not shooting for a third

How the heck is possible that they let you run out of psychiatric medication? I just don't get it.
What meds are you taking?

 

[NightmareTour]

How the heck is possible that they let you run out of psychiatric medication? I just don't get it.
What meds are you taking?

They gave me mirtazapine when I was assessed, I'm already up to 30mg so it's definitely not a good idea to just stop. My local mental health team has a habit of doing things like this.

 

[rs929]

They gave me mirtazapine when I was assessed, I'm already up to 30mg so it's definitely not a good idea to just stop. My local mental health team has a habit of doing things like this.

I take Mirtazapine as well.. it has a sedative effect on me so if I quit cold turkey I could possibly go hypomanic or something. Even tho I'm unipolar
Withdrawals can be hell or a walk in the park depending on each organism.
I think you should look for an alternative of safeguard in case you can't handle the withdrawal. ER maybe?.

 

[NightmareTour]

I take Mirtazapine as well.. it has a sedative effect on me so if I quit cold turkey I could possibly go hypomanic or something. Even tho I'm unipolar
Withdrawals can be hell or a walk in the park depending on each organism.
I think you should look for an alternative of safeguard in case you can't handle the withdrawal. ER maybe?.

That's worth trying if I don't hear anything tomorrow, nobody will take me tonight. Already feel like this is going to be a harsh one, and it's making the side effects from one of my other medications worse on top of everything else.

 

[rs929]

That's worth trying if I don't hear anything tomorrow, nobody will take me tonight. Already feel like this is going to be a harsh one, and it's making the side effects from one of my other medications worse on top of everything else.

Is it anxiety? Do you have xanax or klonopin? You shouldn't upper the dose of those but given the scenario.......
Anyway a withdrawal may make you even more suicidal so I believe you shouldn't give in if you have suicidal thoughts. I'm not saying not do it, just wait until you have a clear mind and can think rationally.
Having said all of that, I'M NO DOCTOR but I think going CT from 30mg of mirtazapine is not like you're going CT cocaine. I think it shouldn't be a dramatic situation.
But in case things go wrong you should be prepared.

 

[whywere]

My heart broke into a million pieces when I read this. How darn heartless are they?? I am on opoids for 24/7 chronic pain and one time everyone messed up and I had to cold turkey for 5 days, it was most unpleasant. I am sending you all my love, caring, empathy and support that everything tomorrow will work out great for you. you are a global family member and when you hurt so do I. Walter

 

[NightmareTour]

Is it anxiety? Do you have xanax or klonopin? You shouldn't upper the dose of those but given the scenario.......
Anyway a withdrawal may make you even more suicidal so I believe you shouldn't give in if you have suicidal thoughts. I'm not saying not do it, just wait until you have a clear mind and can think rationally.
Having said all of that, I'M NO DOCTOR but I think going CT from 30mg of mirtazapine is not like you're going CT cocaine. I think it shouldn't be a dramatic situation.
But in case things go wrong you should be prepared.

It's for PTSD, and the only other meds I have are for epilepsy. From what I've found mirtazapine is a VERY bad medication to CT from.

Also this is a good time for an update. It's about 36 hours since my last dose and I do not feel good. Any noise or human presence makes me angry but also makes me feel like I'll burst into tears at any moment. I'm constantly shaking or tensed up and I keep getting zaps and moments of vertigo. I haven't slept in over 24 hours and don't even feel a tiny bit tired. Currently holed up in my room. I feel like I must be overreacting for it to be this bad this soon but I cannot mentally handle anything.

Still no guarantee I'm getting it today either

 

[rs929]

Any improvement?

 

[Brink]

Thinking of you @NightmareTour x

 

[NightmareTour]

I got my medication... a month's supply of a different dose of it and no further instructions. I'm guessing this is going to play out how it seems since I have a ton of experience with this happening, but I'm keeping my promise to myself. One week.

Haven't taken it yet so I still feel like my head is full of mush. At some point I must have just passed clean out and slept for a couple of hours, which passed the time at least

 

[whywere]

I got my medication... a month's supply of a different dose of it and no further instructions. I'm guessing this is going to play out how it seems since I have a ton of experience with this happening, but I'm keeping my promise to myself. One week.

Haven't taken it yet so I still feel like my head is full of mush. At some point I must have just passed clean out and slept for a couple of hours, which passed the time at least

I was thinking of you last night. I am in the Midwest in the U.S. so it is afternoon here. I was hoping and praying that they came through for you. You a fantastic global family member and I hope and pray that the different doasge works for you. Sending you all my love, caring, kindness and SUPPORT. Walter

 

[Brink]

I'm hoping you're okay @NightmareTour and that your not being here is a good sign. X

 

[Gaybonez]

I'm really sorry this is happening. Your doctor should have given you a benzo to help you withdraw from
this drug. I implore you to follow his regimen and titrate up on the new drug he gave you. I understand if you want to follow your promise to yourself, but there is hope. I've been there before.