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Mecha Man
Experienced
- Jul 16, 2018
- 230
I actually managed to go out and buy a shotgun with ammo. all I have to do is aim in my mouth at my brains and pull the trigger and it's game over. I'm scared. I hope I have the strength to do this. I'm really scared. Not of dying but just of.... I don't even know. Maybe that's the survival instinct. But this is it. There's nothing holding me back but myself. I think I'll try to muster up my strength in my mind before I actually do it. I want to call my brother too just to prepare him for the fact that he's going to have to take care of my family from now on. I'll probably post again before I actually do anything. I was actually thinking of stabbing myself in the heart first to make SURE that I die. Thank you for your continued support.