Venting This feeling of being useless and powerless

[RealLifeTamagotchi]

I hate myself more than ever now.
I mentioned earlier that I got kicked out of military nursing academy on my 3rd year because of my self-harming...well if I haven't done that, I would be a nursing officer by now. I would have been able to help people deal with this coronavirus outbreak. All my ex-comrades are sent for military aid and what am I doing now? Sitting in my room all day because I'm still not a professional. Still under my parent's care. How pathetic...
The number of infected people is almost 3000 in my country because of some crazy cult people. I hate those animals more than I hate myself.

This ain't working...I just keep feeling worse.

 

[You]

So you're korean? And how did you self harm exactly?

 

[RealLifeTamagotchi]

So you're korean? And how did you self harm exactly?

Yup, South Korean here...

With a box cutter knife.