Venting cunts in my room - I feel murderous (psych ward)

[LittleJem]

So today they searched my room and found a screwdriver I was trying to get out through the window.

Now the facilities people are in my room refitting the screws and I can honestly say I feel murderous. I cannot over-emphasise enough how much I hate this place and these nurses. I fucking hate them.

This is totally pointless. The medication is not helping me. I won't be giving up drugs when I leave because I love drugs.

It is all invasive and demeaning and absolutely fucking pointless.

I have not really felt murderous before but right now I absolutely do.

 

[sisyphean-nightmare]

So sorry to hear about your distress. It's completely valid, psych wards are not kind environments. Being locked in and deprived of privacy could make anyone kick into fight-and-flight-mode. Is there anything you know of that could help distract you?

 

[LittleJem]

So sorry to hear about your distress. It's completely valid, psych wards are not kind environments. Being locked in and deprived of privacy could make anyone kick into fight-and-flight-mode. Is there anything you know of that could help distract you?

Thank you. Don't know. Kick a ball in the garden. Chat to people. But really, my depression is here as usual (though the psychiatrist diagnosed me with bipolar mania but that is not true, I just use drugs for my depression). So with the depression and no weed it is just nasty. I can read a book etc and lucky to have my laptop here, but my mind is just as mopey as ever and this is a pointless stay. I will be straight back on drugs when I am out of here. Everybody knows it. So why lock me up for all this time.

Thanks for your kind words

 

[Hollowman]

Why lock you up for a long time? It's very profitable to them.

 

[LittleJem]

That's exactly what it is. It is all about the money

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

I'm so sorry. In the psych ward you are expected to have no feelings, and accept that you are not a fucking person anymore. They don't care about you. All they want is money.

I'm in a psych ward too and scared they're going to do something to me... I told them how I don't feel listened to, calmly and 10 mins later a man in a full white body suit came in and said he was doing a security check and asked if I need to see a doctor. Wtf?

I'm so scared. The doctors have lied about me and won't listen.

No one is listening to me.. now I'm trying to advocate for myself, things are changing. I'm so scared they're going to do something to me.

 

[Worndown]

Not your best day.
They act as though what they are doing will help you. Sometimes it works, sometimes it does not. Roll of the dice...
When you get out you will do whatever you will do. Until then all of you are traped in this routine. It is unlikely any of you are enjoying it. You just get to be vocal about it.

 

[depthss]

psych wards are terrible, awful theyre forcing you to stay locked away against your will. hopefully youll get out soon

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

*edit: wasn't a white body suit lmao, I'm sleep deprived and I was frightened, and it was dark. It was his weird looking shirt that freaked me out and made me think that.

I wish they wouldn't lock us away.