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NeverGoodEnuff

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Early 1980's, I was beaten and strangled, survived. Spent years getting over it and it is just a distant memory now but it has occurred to me that others may find it interesting, insofar as what happens.


The strangling was done, not with hands around my neck, but instead by grasping my windpipe and squeezing it shut. Very effective and quick! Just before losing consciousness, I knew I was going to die. My last thought was who would love my two children like I did. Then...nothing. it was like going to sleep or being anesthetized. No tunnel, no light, no looking down at myself. Just nothing.

Regained consciousness, maybe 10 minutes later, just before EMS arrived. The person who found me thought I was dead so didn't touch me (no pulse or respirations? I don't know), no resuscitation attempts were made.

I am convinced that when you die, it is just like going to sleep. Nothing. One second you are aware, the next you are not.
 
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Early 1980's, I was beaten and strangled, survived. Spent years getting over it and it is just a distant memory now but it has occurred to me that others may find it interesting, insofar as what happens.


The strangling was done, not with hands around my neck, but instead by grasping my windpipe and squeezing it shut. Very effective and quick! Just before losing consciousness, I knew I was going to die. My last thought was who would love my two children like I did. Then...nothing. it was like going to sleep or being anesthetized. No tunnel, no light, no looking down at myself. Just nothing.

Regained consciousness, maybe 10 minutes later, just before EMS arrived. The person who found me thought I was dead so didn't touch me (no pulse or respirations? I don't know), no resuscitation attempts were made.

I am convinced that when you die, it is just like going to sleep. Nothing. One second you are aware, the next you are not.
Was there a feeling of panic?
I mean other than the fact you were being strangled and beaten, obviously.
 
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NeverGoodEnuff

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Was there a feeling of panic?
I mean other than the fact you were being strangled and beaten, obviously.

Surprizingly, no panic. It was more a "huh, this is it, who knew", fatalistic? Almost peaceful. A little surprized.
 
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NeverGoodEnuff

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The whole thing happened so quickly, so suddenly, there was no panic any time during the entire attack, there was no anticipation or time to think. My thoughts were just how to get away. For instance, he dragged me into his vehicle and put me in the front passenger seat. There was a box on the floor and I had to sit with my knees bent, feet on the box. As the car started to move, I realized that in that position, I could get out. It was dark, I reached over to the door handle, and in one swift motion, opened the door, swung my legs around and jumped out, landed on my feet and ran! It was in a park with a playground. I intentionally ran towards the swingset (by now he was chasing me), thinking as I ran by I could grab a swing and put it in motion to maybe trip him up or slow him down.

How my brain managed to think of these things still amazes me. Also, during the beating part, I remember his fists smashing into my face and at the time, I felt the impact but was surprized there was no pain. How can that be? Is it a protective mechanism by the brain? Maybe so.
I lost consciousness one time and had a different experience. I've been unconscious three times (without anesthesia) and the first two times were nothing, like being asleep but the third time was on a different planet and I swear I was actually there.
Interesting! That would actually be pretty cool, maybe.
 
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The whole thing happened so quickly, so suddenly, there was no panic any time during the entire attack, there was no anticipation or time to think. My thoughts were just how to get away. For instance, he dragged me into his vehicle and put me in the front passenger seat. There was a box on the floor and I had to sit with my knees bent, feet on the box. As the car started to move, I realized that in that position, I could get out. It was dark, I reached over to the door handle, and in one swift motion, opened the door, swung my legs around and jumped out, landed on my feet and ran! It was in a park with a playground. I intentionally ran towards the swingset (by now he was chasing me), thinking as I ran by I could grab a swing and put it in motion to maybe trip him up or slow him down.

How my brain managed to think of these things still amazes me. Also, during the beating part, I remember his fists smashing into my face and at the time, I felt the impact but was surprized there was no pain. How can that be? Is it a protective mechanism by the brain? Maybe so?

Wow, what a horrible ordeal! That is amazing your reactions like that, good job! I am glad you got through it... and wish you would have gotten away.

The body can be super efficient and effective in how it decides to not interpret pain signals when it wants to!
 
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NeverGoodEnuff

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No big deal now. I rarely even think about it as anything other than an interesting study in human response. So long ago, 36 years?

I was running towards a house, screaming all the way. The man who lived there woke up, grabbed his rifle, told his wife to call 911, he came out and chased the attacker off. By this time, I was unconscious. Had he not done that, I would be dead.

Lots of good things happened in the time since then.
 
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Oct 20, 2020
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How was life in the billions of years before you were born? How will life be after you crease to exist, just like how it was before you ever existed. Our experience of consciousness is just a useful tool to help us navigate the world to survive. Obviously in today's world it can back fire leading some to want to die. Humans are more suicidal than any other species because we can understand situations much better and we artificially force life on those that should have died with illnesses. Most of our consciousness is just emotions rather than thoughts themselves, but we confuse them and instead call most things thought when it's not. When you die your brain stops working and you stop experiencing any thoughts or emotions so dead just turns into infinite sleep with no possibility of waking up.
 
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Life is just a dream or in my case a fucking nightmare.
 
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Sep 21, 2020
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I went through something similar, I was taken to a wooded area and dragged down a path and I remember thinking I was going to die. My overriding thought was who would tell my parents.

A few years later, I overdosed and went into an arrest. It was black as you describe, nothingness. Just like falling asleep. But it clearly wasn't my time to go.

-Acopia :heart:
 
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Oct 20, 2019
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yeah, same here. overdose... thump.. then nothing..
 
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Pharmaruined

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Sep 10, 2020
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If it's easy to die than its easy to incarnate.. billions of people, animals, plants etc.. life isn't some miracle it's all around, everywhere

In my opinion it seems arrogant to think u can just turn it off, yea maybe this body.
but lights out forever, in every way shape or form?
I dont think so
 
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