Thinking

[ShellofmyFormerSelf]

If I kill myself, does anyone believe I'll be free from pain and that my brain would be restored to its original health? I'm really tired... tired of fighting... however when thinking about any plans and how things would be different. I started feeling some worry about, what if I come out on the other side but not healed?

I'm hoping anhedonia goes away on the other side...

Sorry if this makes anyone worry about the same kind of thing...

 

[Zegers]

I think we'll basically be like a brand new toy

 

[hellispink]

I also hope anhedonia goes away for me and everyone that is deeply suffering because of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just believe that there is nothing after this personally, when we die, we cease to exist and that is it for us. Death is the end to all suffering and all our problems will die with us. I understand being tired of everything. Living really is so painful and it is such an unfair life. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[ShellofmyFormerSelf]

I just need to get the strength to do it. Someday I will...

 

[CursedSoul]

i don't believe anything will happen, i'm pretty fine even if something truly happens, only thing i fear is reincarnation, that shit absolutely terrifies me. Best of luck bud !

 

[ShellofmyFormerSelf]

Thank you! I'm planning to try and go next week. The only thing that's unsettling is brain damage if anyone does find me.

I wonder how to become more comfortable with that idea. I mean, if I become a vegetable I wouldn't have any proper awareness right?

I hope my mum won't keep me alive.

 

[CursedSoul]

they might even euthanize you, so win win ? but it's a gamble to take, maybe before CTB, write a note, mentioning : "if i try to suicide, but i survive and become mentally impaired, please euthanize me, i do not wish to suffer, as this form already inflicts incredible pain, so being in this state would be even worse, i count on your love and understanding,

- Shellofmyformerself"

hope it will help, sadly there's not much choices, suicide is a gamble by itself, it is up to you to measure if you will take the risk or not. Take care

 

[london3]

If I kill myself, does anyone believe I'll be free from pain and that my brain would be restored to its original health? I'm really tired... tired of fighting... however when thinking about any plans and how things would be different. I started feeling some worry about, what if I come out on the other side but not healed?

I'm hoping anhedonia goes away on the other side...

Sorry if this makes anyone worry about the same kind of thing...

Your pain will be over.

No one can tell what lies in store after we die, humans just tell each other stories to make ourselves feel better