Thinking on Several Things

[obsie]

I don't know what I want to do with myself. I want to be a professional actor and am taking courses. Everything's going well. Except it's not. I'm at my breaking point and I've decided, if it's not alright by next year, I'll finally commit suicide.

Right. It's just stupid little things like the fact that most of the actors in my show ignore me, and I feel like the ones who do talk to me only do so because otherwise I'd end up sitting in a corner, blankly staring. The choreographer is angry at me over a small incident where I flopped out of his arms while he spun me around.

So.

Here I am.

Giving myself one more chance to live.

But here's my question: at my college, we have a really nice lab with some pretty scary chemicals such as Copper Nitrate, amongst other things. It's a "poison". What are some chemicals I could find in a lab that'd kill me, how much would I need, and would it hurt to swallow them?

Thanks

 

[Stan]

Personally I would concentrate a bit more on your first part of your posting. The arts always sound like drama lovers anyways to me with tantrums and diva behaviour so this could be normal behaviour for them. Maybe other people in your troop have the same feelings.

 

[BPD_LE]

I hear you're fed up which isn't a nice feeling. People are fickle so try not to get hung up on others. Concentrate on yourself, sounds like you have a lot of passion and talent and you've given yourself time which is fantastic. If I were you, I'd concentrate on your chosen profession and put the chemicals on the back burner (no pun intended!)

 

[obsie]

Personally I would concentrate a bit more on your first part of your posting. The arts always sound like drama lovers anyways to me with tantrums and diva behaviour so this could be normal behaviour for them. Maybe other people in your troop have the same feelings.

You'd be surprised, actually. Drama people are actually pretty nice in real life, inclusive, and just about the weirdest balls of sunshine ever. It's just me that's the problem.

I hear you're fed up which isn't a nice feeling. People are fickle so try not to get hung up on others. Concentrate on yourself, sounds like you have a lot of passion and talent and you've given yourself time which is fantastic. If I were you, I'd concentrate on your chosen profession and put the chemicals on the back burner (no pun intended!)

I'm concentrating for the next year or so, yeah, if it doesn't work out, then hell. I'd really like some advice on chemicals, sorry :)

 

[Stan]

Take time to read through the site and the links the mods sent you as a welcome pack. Its a great start

 

[obsie]

Take time to read through the site and the links the mods sent you as a welcome pack. Its a great start

Thank you!