i love it while i hate it. but am not a junkie per se, not addicted but polytoxikoman with rare phases where i buy some stuff and consume it. its heaven but getting back to life without it is always hell, and im not even talking about withdrawal, i always avoided that. its only the weed that i dont want to miss, some people like cigarettes i like some fruity amnesia thats fine lol. depends on your character what will happen with you. there are more dangerous substances though, heroin, sometimes crystal, and if you feel really bad you may also fall for benzos right from the beginning, alcohol is a pain in the ass too. i call it the three deadly withdrawals: benzos,alcohol,ghb/gbl (deadly because of seizures epileptic episodes cramps etc)
you startet this thread with the intention of getting better, that wont work. the only thing you can do is you can pay time to feel better until youre out of money or sources, and then you have to pay twice. so its like youre gonna get beaten up when you stop buying shit, but not from the dealer - from your brain
i already dont enjoy life so im gonna take heroin when i know that ill ctb soon, to have some fun until i have no more money.