thinking about jumping of a bridge

[bumoshi]

I don't know how to start this, I think is just another ignored call of help.
every day I wake up and think about going to that bridge but my mom is so sick I have to take care of her, she'll die if I go, and that would be my fault. I don't enjoy things anymore, I got a boyfriend from my university and I'm just... completely numb.
and for the end I'm going completely insane, I cut myself with screws, cutters, knifes... but it just doesn't do anything, I don't know what I'm going to do with my life.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really tiring and awful being in that situation, and I get that it can be so dreadful feeling trapped here when all that you wish for is to leave this world. It does feel as though for many people in this world life is just constant and endless suffering with no real relief, it's certainly a very cruel existence but I wish you the best.

 

[Kattt]

There are many young carers, forced to care for family members because their government can't provide assistance and they can't afford to pay for private care. It's a massive burden and not the way life is supposed to be. By right it's the parent who should care for the child.
The not enjoying things at all possibly indicates clinical depression. This is different to regular depression and really needs treatment. So perhaps seeing a doctor might help if you choose. It's your choice of course, but if you have to be here, it could make it more bearable.
Good luck and hugs.