Thinking about ending it all

[SadGirl]

I can't stay stable in a job, I always get fired within 2 months, and then it takes me a while to find another job. I'm studying nursing, my parents don't want to help me, in fact they call me names and make me feel worse than I already feel. Sometimes it makes you want to just end it all. My relationship isn't great, my fiancee barely pays me any attention, hardly talks to me, it seems like I'm a "whatever" to her... Tips on how to end my life, with as little pain as possible.

 

[SadGirl]

My parents are toxic, I left here and failed and had to return. I always fail, I don't have many people to count on.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's awful how many humans are so unnecessarily cruel in this existence and just create more suffering, I understand why you'd just wish to be free from it all. But anyway best wishes.

 

[AmyWhite999]

good luck if you decide to ctb

 

[SadGirl]

It's awful how many humans are so unnecessarily cruel in this existence and just create more suffering, I understand why you'd just wish to be free from it all. But anyway best wishes.

Yes, I don't know why my mother does this to a daughter.

 

[Hevn]

It is sad.
Don't you see any other choice for yourself?

 

[WonderingSoul]

I'm in a similar situation. Sorry you are going through this.

 

[the_summoning]

I'm sorry you're having to deal with toxic "loved" ones. I bet they'll all be the first ones crying loud and acting damn fool at your funeral. It's always the ones who did the dead person wrong who want to act like they were that person's rock when they were alive . While you're still figuring things out for how you want to CTB OP is it at least possible for you to break off your engagement and go no contact with your parents?

As for methods for ctb, I've been doing some research for if/when the time comes I want to go and I'm looking at trying to get my hands on benzos or at least find a reputable place to purchase them. Failing that, easiest thing for me to purchase here in Texas is a gun so that's the backup plan.