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dead-raven
Dead Raven: Do Not Eat
- Jul 9, 2024
- 3
man im tired making people UNDERSTAND what i fucking feel and think. THEY JUST DONT FUCKING GET IT. they don't understand the pain of being repeatedly abandoned, replaced, misunderstood, and fucking taking advantage all over again. I GET IT U WANT TO FUCKING BUR IT'S NO USE CUZ THEY CANT UNDERSTAND U. that's not helping at all.
i just wanna rest for real this time. im tired proving myself to everyone and it's not my fucking job anymore to understand me. i accepted their help but i still got invalidated in the end. man it pierce my heart so much to see myself getting stepped by other people's mindset because they just couldn't get what's going on in head. i reached out multiple times but they still seem unreachable to me. i couldn't take it anymore. im fucking exhausted explaining myself all over again just to get ended up invalidated with their narrow-minded mentatlity.
im going to ctb sooner, but i only have OTC drugs here (benadryl, ibuprofen, mefenamic, and paracetamol) and chug it with an alcohol. idk if it works, but im gonna slit my pulse just incase it wont work. it will be a long agonizing and torturous way to ctb but i dont have a choice anymore. hanging myself would be my last resort. i'll keep and update of the shit happens.
i just wanna rest for real this time. im tired proving myself to everyone and it's not my fucking job anymore to understand me. i accepted their help but i still got invalidated in the end. man it pierce my heart so much to see myself getting stepped by other people's mindset because they just couldn't get what's going on in head. i reached out multiple times but they still seem unreachable to me. i couldn't take it anymore. im fucking exhausted explaining myself all over again just to get ended up invalidated with their narrow-minded mentatlity.
im going to ctb sooner, but i only have OTC drugs here (benadryl, ibuprofen, mefenamic, and paracetamol) and chug it with an alcohol. idk if it works, but im gonna slit my pulse just incase it wont work. it will be a long agonizing and torturous way to ctb but i dont have a choice anymore. hanging myself would be my last resort. i'll keep and update of the shit happens.