LunaXCBN
The Best Thing (That Never Happened)
- Feb 6, 2023
- 119
They all say the same shit over and over and over again
"I'm here for you", "It's going to be okay", "Please get therapy", "Hope you're ok"
It pisses me off, they really have nothing else to say, do they?
I mean I can't blame them, they probably don't understand what I'm even fucking saying. It feels like the sympathy they give is so fucking fake, just like everything else.
Every time I even nudge at the thought of me wanting to kill myself, it's ALWAYS THE SAME FUCKING RESPONSE, EVERY TIME AND IT MAKES ME SO FUCKING MAD
They might be right, but holy shit does it get annoying hearing the same thing over and over again. Maybe I should just keep that shit to myself, they probably don't understand anyway and it's probably a burden for me to talk about it to them, but bottling it up drives me fucking insane.
How can you be there for me when you don't even get it? And no, it's not going to be okay, nothing will until I'm dead. I don't trust therapy, and no I'm not ok. I haven't been for the past 5 years. High school fucking ruined me.
I just want to be done with this shit, but I want to get my shit done first. I can't leave my work undone, that would be disgrace.
"I'm here for you", "It's going to be okay", "Please get therapy", "Hope you're ok"
It pisses me off, they really have nothing else to say, do they?
I mean I can't blame them, they probably don't understand what I'm even fucking saying. It feels like the sympathy they give is so fucking fake, just like everything else.
Every time I even nudge at the thought of me wanting to kill myself, it's ALWAYS THE SAME FUCKING RESPONSE, EVERY TIME AND IT MAKES ME SO FUCKING MAD
They might be right, but holy shit does it get annoying hearing the same thing over and over again. Maybe I should just keep that shit to myself, they probably don't understand anyway and it's probably a burden for me to talk about it to them, but bottling it up drives me fucking insane.
How can you be there for me when you don't even get it? And no, it's not going to be okay, nothing will until I'm dead. I don't trust therapy, and no I'm not ok. I haven't been for the past 5 years. High school fucking ruined me.
I just want to be done with this shit, but I want to get my shit done first. I can't leave my work undone, that would be disgrace.