BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
My name is Burning Lights, and I'm gonna to CTB tonight. If anyone cares and is interested, I live in the United Kingdom. IF it hits the news, that's the country you wanna look at.

So I don't really know what to say, I feel I've already expressed myself in my last couple posts.
This place has been the only place I feel somewhat comfortable, ALL you beautiful people, so caring, so much love to give, you're all deserving of peace, whichever way you choose to seek it.

I apologise for my...inability to connect with others, you all tried so hard, and I feel I never gave back, well, not recently anyway, you see I've lost that ability, along with my humanity, there is only one option for me now, now that I've burned every bridge and backed myself into a corner that I'm unable to leave.

I'm not going to name individuals, why make this personal now right?

But to everyone I have spoken to, be it brief or in depth, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking the time to care, speak to me, think of me, everyword that ever cross your lips (well, fingers). Thank you. And for anyone reading this i didn't speak to, I wish you well on your journey.

That's my table of accessories for the evening. I was going to post a recent picture, but I look like shit, it's me on the left and my brother (r.i.p) on the right, doing the ' joe strummer snarl'

I went saw my canine best friend today, I'm glad I done that.
I did fuck up though, I deleted all my accounts and what not, and lost all my numbers, so I won't be sending a timed text to anyone. Not what I wanted, I don't want to be rotting, oh well.

I've still got some bits to do, but I'm pretty much there. Thought I better write this before it gets too late.

Thank you to everyone.
Tell me your favourite drinks! I'll make sure they're on order for when you get to the other side, as I hear the bar is always open in the 4th dimension.
I will be waiting for you all, with my arms out stretched.

I love you all. May all your journeys find the peace you're looking for. ❤️
 
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TiredHorse

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Nov 1, 2018
1,819
May you find peace, BurningLights. Safe travels and a gentle journey. I'll look for you when I reach the other side.
 
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meowcat

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Aug 9, 2018
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My name is Ben, and I'm gonna to CTB tonight. If anyone cares and is interested, I live in the Bournemouth area of the uk. IF it hits the news, that's the region you wanna look at.

So I don't really know what to say, I feel I've already expressed myself in my last couple posts.
This place has been the only place I feel somewhat comfortable, ALL you beautiful people, so caring, so much love to give, you're all deserving of peace, whichever way you choose to seek it.

I apologise for my...inability to connect with others, you all tried so hard, and I feel I never gave back, well, not recently anyway, you see I've lost that ability, along with my humanity, there is only one option for me now, now that I've burned every bridge and backed myself into a corner that I'm unable to leave.

I'm not going to name individuals, why make this personal now right?

But to everyone I have spoken to, be it brief or in depth, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking the time to care, speak to me, think of me, everyword that ever cross your lips (well, fingers). Thank you. And for anyone reading this i didn't speak to, I wish you well on your journey.

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That's my table of accessories for the evening. I was going to post a recent picture, but I look like shit, it's me on the left and my brother (r.i.p) on the right, doing the ' joe strummer snarl'

I went saw my canine best friend today, I'm glad I done that.
I did fuck up though, I deleted all my accounts and what not, and lost all my numbers, so I won't be sending a timed text to anyone. Not what I wanted, I don't want to be rotting, oh well.

I've still got some bits to do, but I'm pretty much there. Thought I better write this before it gets too late.

Thank you to everyone.
Tell me your favourite drinks! I'll make sure they're on order for when you get to the other side, as I hear the bar is always open in the 4th dimension.
I will be waiting for you all, with my arms out stretched.

I love you all. May all your journeys find the peace you're looking for. ❤️
Good Luck Ben.
You will surely find peace.
Order me a Newcastle Beer.
And don't be sorry for anything.You are a good soul.
 
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1234dave

Specialist
Oct 5, 2018
369
Reach for the stars.

May you find peace.

Have a great trip my friend, see you up there soon Ben.
 
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Toenditall

Toenditall

im already dead just need to kill the body
Nov 10, 2018
225
Hope you can find your peace I'll take a jack and coke no ice keep my seat warm I'll be there Sunday
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
Hugs you all
 
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furax53

Student
Nov 13, 2018
191
good travels
find peace
 
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pushka

pushka

Member
Mar 23, 2018
47
Good luck! I never had the pleasure of speaking with you but I hope you find the peace you're looking for
 
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Imnobody

Imnobody

Member
Nov 18, 2018
19
Good luck ben. If there is an afterlife, meet u there.
 
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lifeisbutadream

Warlock
Oct 4, 2018
722
Godspeed my friend. You will be so amazed and delighted when you wake up in the next world!
 
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Retched

Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
837
I hope you find peace tonight.
 
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Miss clefable

Enlightened
Aug 23, 2018
1,577
Hugs may your passing be peaceful I'll miss you omg your from Bournemouth my home town
 
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creationisdeath

Specialist
Oct 20, 2018
359
We only ever shared a few messages but I wish you peaceful slumber and quick departure. Farewell brother
 
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blueming

blueming

if we can stand outside the borders of time
Sep 21, 2018
253
Good luck, I wish you all the best! I hope that you find peace :)
 
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worldexploder

worldexploder

Visionary
Sep 19, 2018
2,821
I'm gonna miss the hell out of you Ben. I'm glad I got to talk to you and I hope you have a very peaceful passing. Nothing but love!
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
Good Luck Ben.
You will surely find peace.
Order me a Newcastle Beer.
And don't be sorry for anything.You are a good soul.
A good old newcy brown ale? Good choice! I'll try not to drink it all, try and save ya one!
 
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blindstatue

blindstatue

Member
Nov 16, 2018
94
I hope you find peace. And I hope to meet you on the other side. Hugs.
 
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Toxic Person

Toxic Person

Member
Nov 11, 2018
50
I hope u find peace Ben <3 i wish u the best and i give u a big hug <3
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
I'm gonna miss the hell out of you Ben. I'm glad I got to talk to you and I hope you have a very peaceful passing. Nothing but love!
Gonna miss you too my man. Damn, this is getting hard....
What you drinking? I'll have it ordered for when you get here!
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
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worldexploder

worldexploder

Visionary
Sep 19, 2018
2,821
Gonna miss you too my man. Damn, this is getting hard....
What you drinking? I'll have it ordered for when you get here!
Thank you buddy. If there is a heaven I'll take Jim Beam Whiskey.
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
Hugs may your passing be peaceful I'll miss you omg your from Bournemouth my home town
Officially in small town not too far, you may know it, but not gonna disclose it openly.
Big hug for you miss, what you drinking?
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
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Mr. Bill

Mr. Bill

Member
Nov 19, 2018
32
Good luck man
 
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sadsoul

sadsoul

Alive and unwell
Sep 9, 2018
440
I never talked to you but I wish you a peaceful journey to the other side. I hope I can join you soon and give you a big hug <3
 
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Help_Me

Help_Me

Gene pool mistake
Oct 21, 2018
516
Ben, i hope it's not too late yet and you'll notice my goodbye words to you. I know we did not talk a lot or shared too much messages, but i will miss you for sure. Everytime somebody leaves us here i feel more upset and depressed. It becomes harder and harder for me to cope with all losses on this forum.. Shedding a few tears right now, i just can't control myself as i used to... I wish you all the best in your journey and may you find the eternal piece and calmness. I do not drink too much, but when it comes to that ... i like whiskey mixed with some cola. Hope you'll keep some bottle for me as well, any of your personal choice.
"I can hear the bus!" - that's written in your status. I mentioned it earlier and it made me a bit anxious. What a pity we just can't live for some reasons and literally have to choose ctb. I'll miss you, my friend. You won't be forgotten here.

It's getting harder and harder for me, but .. farewell, Ben...
 
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Warlock
Jul 13, 2018
721
Thank you for all of your contributions to the community, you will be well missed.

There is a sanctioned-suicide.com on the other side, but it is very much the opposite of this place. it's actually a very happy forum with very happy people, everyone is still very caring and very loving. Make sure when you get there that you register.

Say hello to my cousins for me, and please. Red Headed Sluts (Jager, Peach Schnapps, and Cranberry Juice) are my poison of choice.
 
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tevati

Student
Sep 25, 2018
156
Good luck. Hope the transition works smooth and good.

How you do it?
 
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Miss clefable

Enlightened
Aug 23, 2018
1,577
Officially in small town not too far, you may know it, but not gonna disclose it openly.
Big hug for you miss, what you drinking?
Kopperberg raspberry ❤️
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
Thank you so much for the messages guys, I'm overwhelmed, truly. I'm still here, but signing off for now. Gonna enjoy this pizza and whiskey and have one last little private party. Will come back before going through with it. Hugs for now ❤️
 
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