There’s nothing worst to a suicidal than this lockdown

[NothingElseMatters]

I'm losing my fucking mind.

 

[plough22]

Exactly, worst thing. It's torture getting through the minutes hours days, let alone months

 

[Walilamdzi]

Ughhh me too.

 

[willitpass]

i feel that

 

[sufferingalways]

I agree. I've been stuck in my apartment not seen daylight two years already, due to landlord neglect a problem that keeps me and my friend awake. suffering wont end. always in pain (eyes sore, and body painful due to lack of movement in small place).

Exactly, worst thing. It's torture getting through the minutes hours days, let alone months

Agree with you.

 

[GoBack]

I know I'm gonna snap and get taken to the hospital. I just can't with the hospital anymore. Everytime I go in I lose another part of myself.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I am hating it, the UK has no fucking idea what it's doing, they keep pushing dates back to when thing's MAY go back to some slow normality, I am sick of this, its fucking my mind up big time as there is no escape at all

 

[deadpixels]

I have been living "in quarantine" for about 8 years (maybe more? I've lost the count). For me, it's kinda funny to see all the optimistic people panicking over a few months of this.

 

[Koaster97]

I thought I would've benefit from this since I got to go home from uni but not being able to go the gym has completely killed my mental health. I took it for granted.

 

[The Dark Chaos]

Seriouslyy..This lockdown is actuallyy making me insane..I'm just tired of staying at home with my family, it would have been better to be alone during lockdown..Its getting damn hard to escape that empty void within me, which is slowlyy eating me up..!!
I hate it.

 

[Klee]

I thought I would've benefit from this since I got to go home from uni but not being able to go the gym has completely killed my mental health. I took it for granted.

I too am waiting on some news for the leisure centres reopening here - but for the pool. I hope for us both they will be back sooner rather than later.

I am hating it, the UK has no fucking idea what it's doing, they keep pushing dates back to when thing's MAY go back to some slow normality, I am sick of this, its fucking my mind up big time as there is no escape at all

The constant up and down and false hope has been soul destroying, every news outlet says something different. Honestly I pray that next week brings some clarity, I'm losing my mind too.

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

Yup, the Pandemic is going to be the "straw that broke the camels back" for millions.... I for one will not live to see the other side of this....... Im actaully glad to sit back and watch all the human nastiness, selfishness, insanity....... Trump and all the suffering. Confirms that this life is truly a dog eat dog, every man for himself, survival of the fittest, the strong crushes the weak........ I am a weak person who needed to be handled with gentle care in my childgood and formative years...but I got my Spirit broken and nothing can heal it.......... So yeah, fuck the lockdown. Fuck Trump. Fuck America. Fuck people. Fuck life. It is only good for those who luck and advantage and priviledge. As a Black Woman living in the USA....... I can tell you it is horrific still........ For every Oprah there are thousands of Black women who fall through the cracks of a "individualistic" culture.... we are still suffering the rippling effects of being brought here as slaves from our home countries that have been destroyed. Even if I did what the racist conservative say and "go back home to Africa" I would find the generational aftermath of colonialsim, and Black Women trying to bleach thier skin which is a million dollar industry because not only has the land and resouces been polluted, but also the MINDS of the people. I am done living in a universe where I am seen as a mule or scum. Buh buye shit hole Earth!

 

[FusRohDracarys]

Dude, me too. I wake up and my first lucid thoughts are different ways I could kill myself. After I get over the disorientation and deja vu and wondering where tf I am and if this is real. I've been locked down for 2 months and it's supposed to go on a third, but they've extended it each month so far so as far as I'm concerned it's going on forever. I honestly don't see how I'm going to survive this.

 

[MaybeSoon]

As I'm socially anxious and slightly reclusive my life hasn't changed really, except I drink more.

It's stressing me out with the fact I feel more pressure to stay strong and keep myself alive until it's all over for my loved ones sake.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Agree. I didn´t have much of a social life before but at least I went out to appointments a couple times a months and shooting at a gun range twice a month both would give me a little social interaction and I could enjoy that hobby and the car rides to the destinations.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

I have been living like this for months now. Before, I had a job, but aside from that I was seeking out my own desert long before this panic.

 

[Unspoken]

Yes it is horrible. I'm constantly sitting around and thinking about what I'm going to do when quarantine is lifted and I can get a hotel to myself.

 

[niloc]

Most of us are probably reaching 2 months of lockdown. I hate working from home and I simply hate all the bullshit that surrounds the outside. I should be grateful that I have a job, but I fucking hate it and have hated it well before this all started. I'm at the point where I WANT to catch the thing so I've got something interesting happening in my life. Maybe that would take me out.. would be nice..

 

[Adamsnolife]

I am hating it, the UK has no fucking idea what it's doing, they keep pushing dates back to when thing's MAY go back to some slow normality, I am sick of this, its fucking my mind up big time as there is no escape at all

Think it will be a while till this fucking lockdown will end

 

[S5E51mbB]

Hmmm. I don't know. Quarantine means I don't have to justify being socially reclusive. The less people I meet the better. Plus more time for drumming, coding and gaming...if people weren't dying and the economy wasn't tanking this would be pretty close to ideal.

 

[WhatIsMyLife]

I think the thing that has become evident during this lockdown is the fact that people don't care/understand mental health, and how it works. The amount of times I've seen people say "get over it" or "just adapt" is infuriating. I get the need to manage this crisis, but the cure is really going to be worse than the disease at this rate.

This lockdown is emotionally challenging, made even worse with mental health issues(like myself). The lack of socializing has meant I feel incredibly lonely, and just so despondent. Combine this with the lack of any clarity of what will happen just makes it far worse.

 

[AintNoWayOut]

hasnt changed my life much as im still working. and my issue is pain in my body, so going out and doing stuff doesnt serve as an escape for me, it often worsens it. hence why i want to kill myself, im tired of not ever being able to go out and live as a normal person. how a lot of people feel right now, all locked up and unable to go out and socialize/do things, is how i've felt for nearly six years now, within my own body. sure sucks, huh.