Venting There's no hope

[Eudaimonic]

My life is a hopeless wreck and I am utterly miserable and dysfunctional. There is no chance of me ever having a normal, happy life. Things are not going to get any better because I just don't have it in me. I don't know why I thought I had any chance of recovering or that attempting to would even be desirable. Why do I keep deluding myself into thinking that there's any hope?

 

[PathtoDie]

Hey, just wanted to give my two cents. Nothing amazing happened my whole life, health-wise or financial-wise. The people I cared for passed away before I spent enough time with them. The people that do exist now have some sort of health issue, including myself. Financially, my family's a complete mess. Too many debts, too little income. I know there's potential for good things to happen, and they have happened, but unfairness is constantly overtaking fairness. I might have a good thing happen here and there, but mostly it's all been bad. But, just when I went into a lot of depression and became suicidal, good things started happening. It's almost like something doesn't want me to attempt.


What I mean by all this, is that maybe good things will happen to you soon as well. And you mention you don't have it in you, why not? Unless you're absolutely sure things won't get better, maybe just try and see if they will? Instead of wanting that hope, maybe watch some films with your friends, chat with your family, or do something you like?


Now, I'm not at all a positive guy. In fact, I'm super pessimistic about things, and usually suicidal. But I feel like maybe there is a chance for you to get better? I'm trying every single day. Recently I brisk-walked for like 10 minutes listening to my favorite music and it felt great. Now I became super lazy again. Maybe getting better is more about overcoming that depression or laziness?

Let me know what you think of this. If you truly think things will not get better, then you're probably right.

 

[Eudaimonic]

Hey, just wanted to give my two cents. Nothing amazing happened my whole life, health-wise or financial-wise. The people I cared for passed away before I spent enough time with them. The people that do exist now have some sort of health issue, including myself. Financially, my family's a complete mess. Too many debts, too little income. I know there's potential for good things to happen, and they have happened, but unfairness is constantly overtaking fairness. I might have a good thing happen here and there, but mostly it's all been bad. But, just when I went into a lot of depression and became suicidal, good things started happening. It's almost like something doesn't want me to attempt.


What I mean by all this, is that maybe good things will happen to you soon as well. And you mention you don't have it in you, why not? Unless you're absolutely sure things won't get better, maybe just try and see if they will? Instead of wanting that hope, maybe watch some films with your friends, chat with your family, or do something you like?


Now, I'm not at all a positive guy. In fact, I'm super pessimistic about things, and usually suicidal. But I feel like maybe there is a chance for you to get better? I'm trying every single day. Recently I brisk-walked for like 10 minutes listening to my favorite music and it felt great. Now I became super lazy again. Maybe getting better is more about overcoming that depression or laziness?

Let me know what you think of this. If you truly think things will not get better, then you're probably right.

The reason I said that I don't have it in me is because I have a number of debilitating issues, and given this I am not capable of functioning at the level required to salvage my life. And that's assuming that it would even be possible, which I honestly have doubts about considering the scope of the problems. So, this is why I don't think things will get better. Even just overcoming the depression or laziness would not be enough - so many things would need to go right for it to work out.

 

[PathtoDie]

The reason I said that I don't have it in me is because I have a number of debilitating issues, and given this I am not capable of functioning at the level required to salvage my life. And that's assuming that it would even be possible, which I honestly have doubts about considering the scope of the problems. So, this is why I don't think things will get better. Even just overcoming the depression or laziness would not be enough - so many things would need to go right for it to work out.

I completely understand. I'm so sorry you have to go through the unfair suffering. I just wish there were alternative methods to get relief from the issues. The fairness vs. unfairness is just totally out of balance in this world. Psychopathic rich people live great lives while honest and hardworking people get thrown under the bus. The opposite can also happen, but in my experience I'm yet to see someone in my family who's hardworking and honest get filthy rich.

 

[Eudaimonic]

Idk what to do anymore. I feel like I'm in purgatory--I don't want to be alive, but neither do I (actively) want to kill myself--so I am trapped here for the foreseeable future. There are things I could do to improve my life, but they don't seem worthwhile, and they will never be enough. Ultimately, I think that killing myself is only a matter of time; I just wish that I could expedite the process, skipping the pointless misery.