butterflycollector
the suspense is unbearable ʕ⁎̯͡⁎ʔ
- Aug 27, 2021
- 13
i just moved out of my step dad's house into an apartment with my mom. my step dad was unbearable to live with, he always insulted me and called me lazy and stupid and i dont even know how many times he told me to get out of his house, from the time i was 15 till now.
i thought he would be better to live with when my mom took me to move with him. i used to live with my mom's terrible abusive ex boyfriend and i really thought my life was getting better after he was gone and that nothing could be worse after that. but i was wrong and it all started on day 1 of living in that house.
and now after moving and only being in this apartment for maybe a week, i was crushed again that my life could get better being without my step dad. my mom copies exactly what he used to say. she got home today after being gone all morning and immediately starts insulting me and calling me a dumbass and a piece of shit for absolutely no reason, i didnt even get to speak to her yet. and i was looking forward to seeing her and talking to her when she got home..
she did it last night too. im stuck here because i just turned 18 early this year and even with the money i made from having a job before wouldnt be enough to leave anytime soon. id have to work more for quite a while and have to keep putting up with this.
i dont have any friends in person. i am retaking my senior year because online school made me lose all motivation and i failed all my classes. all my "friends" from before have graduated and as soon as quarantine hit last year, none of them continued talking to me anyway. the one friend at school that didn't graduate yet told me she had other plans when i asked her to lunch and she never spoke to me since the first day. there is one guy at school who speaks to me rarely but he used to be very creepy towards me and the other day he just punched me as hard as he could in the arm. id rather not hang out with somebody like that.
i have my close few online friends and my boyfriend, but i am dating him long distance so i can never see him and be with him in person. i have absolutely nobody around me who would hang out with me or treat me nicely and talk. i really wish my mom would at least be nice to me for once, or somebody would come up to me and talk or hang out and get lunch with me. it really seems like nobody cares about me at all. it really makes me want to ctb already.
i thought he would be better to live with when my mom took me to move with him. i used to live with my mom's terrible abusive ex boyfriend and i really thought my life was getting better after he was gone and that nothing could be worse after that. but i was wrong and it all started on day 1 of living in that house.
and now after moving and only being in this apartment for maybe a week, i was crushed again that my life could get better being without my step dad. my mom copies exactly what he used to say. she got home today after being gone all morning and immediately starts insulting me and calling me a dumbass and a piece of shit for absolutely no reason, i didnt even get to speak to her yet. and i was looking forward to seeing her and talking to her when she got home..
she did it last night too. im stuck here because i just turned 18 early this year and even with the money i made from having a job before wouldnt be enough to leave anytime soon. id have to work more for quite a while and have to keep putting up with this.
i dont have any friends in person. i am retaking my senior year because online school made me lose all motivation and i failed all my classes. all my "friends" from before have graduated and as soon as quarantine hit last year, none of them continued talking to me anyway. the one friend at school that didn't graduate yet told me she had other plans when i asked her to lunch and she never spoke to me since the first day. there is one guy at school who speaks to me rarely but he used to be very creepy towards me and the other day he just punched me as hard as he could in the arm. id rather not hang out with somebody like that.
i have my close few online friends and my boyfriend, but i am dating him long distance so i can never see him and be with him in person. i have absolutely nobody around me who would hang out with me or treat me nicely and talk. i really wish my mom would at least be nice to me for once, or somebody would come up to me and talk or hang out and get lunch with me. it really seems like nobody cares about me at all. it really makes me want to ctb already.
