You're very welcome. Suicidal thoughts can be a common side effect when starting psych drugs, and if you were already suicidal before starting them, the drugs can sometimes accelerate these thoughts. For instance, I started taking sertraline about a week and a half ago, and my suicidal thoughts have definitely worsened since then. Do you feel that your suicidal thoughts have increased since starting your meds? I hope this helps you determine if the medications are contributing to a further decline. Nobody deserves to be in pain, no matter what. Even if you had recognised your son's signs and symptoms, it's hard to say whether that would have changed his decision. I had a close friend take his life a couple of years ago, and despite my efforts to support him, he still chose to end his life. Although it's not the same as losing a child, it was incredibly painful, and I can't imagine the pain of losing a child. It's very kind of you to visit and bring flowers. Please don't blame yourself or feel that you deserve this pain. I hope the medium reading goes well and you can connect with your son. I find comfort in the thought that, while we don't know where we go after death, we all end up in the same place eventually. You will be with your son again someday xo
Thank you so much! I'm sorry about your friend! And thank you for sharing. We don't know what's on the other side but like you said I believe we all going to meet with our loved ones and friends.
Yes I believe my suicidal thoughts turned to suicide with plan with this medications. I literally thought about taking some potassium from work to inject myself. I keep delaying every time I read responses like yours. Today I saw my children playing by the graveyard they are so innocent so I'm going to give it a try. I changed and I know I will never go back to normal but I'm doing this for my children. Hopefully I can. I just want to be with him I hope he did know how much I love him. Losing a child put me on a life sentence. I'm not looking for happiness and maybe I deserve to suffer.
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I appreciate that. I obviously don't have the means to confirm whether there is a direct correlation between your medications and having a suicide plan, but for me, all of my previous attempts occurred when starting a new medication. However, the severity of the increased thoughts did subside within a few weeks. That said, everyone is different, so take my personal experience with a grain of salt. Even if you aren't feeling your best right now, your children need their mother. I don't say this to make you feel guilty or to convince you not to end things, but rather to emphasise that you are incredibly valued and have a significant purpose on this earth. A loss that big would affect anyone. You're incredibly brave for sticking around. I've heard that losing a child is one of the most painful things a parent can endure. When I disclosed my suicidal thoughts to my mum once, she broke down and begged me not to leave her. I can't imagine what you must be feeling. Feel free to message me if you ever need to talk.
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@badtothebone listen to @CatLvr, they are saying exactly what your rational side has to hear, that as long as there are other children involved who need you, you will have to find a way for your emotional side to live with the pain. the pain is obviously real, it may not ever go away, and you will need to find a way to accept that. you will need to find a way commit to living with it and finding whatever possible way to deal with it for your other children. they are now the priority.
