FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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It's annoying how especially at this time of the year delusional people love to push their toxic positivity onto others and dismiss the cruel and harsh reality of this existence, even on this site. It confuses me why people are even on here when they see the start of the new year as being so happy and positive, I thought those types of people would be out enjoying life instead rather than invalidating suicidal people's suffering.
But anyway, the fact that a new year is about to start is an absolutely dreadful thing, where suffering is guaranteed and where so many existing beings will inevitably be tortured. There could never be anything 'happy' about this, it's so absurd and disrespectful to even suggest that and all those people in denial will just suffer more in the future. I really hate the fact that I'm still here and how I managed to exist for yet another year. 22 years of this existence feels far too long to me. I so envy those who died this year, and I really admire those who ctb this year. But the fact remains that as time goes on things will just get worse and we will all just suffer more and more so the start of a new year could never be a positive thing. In fact a new year starting is something so incredibly horrible and tragic and I really don't want to be here to see it. No amount of words could really describe how much I despise existing.
But anyway, the fact that a new year is about to start is an absolutely dreadful thing, where suffering is guaranteed and where so many existing beings will inevitably be tortured. There could never be anything 'happy' about this, it's so absurd and disrespectful to even suggest that and all those people in denial will just suffer more in the future. I really hate the fact that I'm still here and how I managed to exist for yet another year. 22 years of this existence feels far too long to me. I so envy those who died this year, and I really admire those who ctb this year. But the fact remains that as time goes on things will just get worse and we will all just suffer more and more so the start of a new year could never be a positive thing. In fact a new year starting is something so incredibly horrible and tragic and I really don't want to be here to see it. No amount of words could really describe how much I despise existing.