Venting there comes a time when it's over

[RolfZuckowski]

SN arrived a few days ago, a month too late due to the polish supplier accidently shipping nitrate before^^, test kit will be here tomorrow. Only thing missing is an dopamine antagonist AE, but so far I only found ones for a lot of monies, maybe I shouldn't be stingy for that^^. Ironically I am back to square one, last year, 2 weeks before today I had my last SA. Luckily I remembered listening to the new york times podcast when it got released, so I knew what to look for. 2 months psych ward, followed by 3 months psychiatric day care hospital. I am tired, there is nothing worse than beeing always occupited by yourself, using all your remaining strength to be overwhelmed by even the most basic things. Getting up get's harder each day whilst the pressures of live keep crushing me.

I promised myself to act if I notice me becoming bitter, I'm too young for that :)

 

[Vizzy]

SN arrived a few days ago, a month too late due to the polish supplier accidently shipping nitrate before^^, test kit will be here tomorrow. Only thing missing is an dopamine antagonist AE, but so far I only found ones for a lot of monies, maybe I shouldn't be stingy for that^^. Ironically I am back to square one, last year, 2 weeks before today I had my last SA. Luckily I remembered listening to the new york times podcast when it got released, so I knew what to look for. 2 months psych ward, followed by 3 months psychiatric day care hospital. I am tired, there is nothing worse than beeing always occupited by yourself, using all your remaining strength to be overwhelmed by even the most basic things. Getting up get's harder each day whilst the pressures of live keep crushing me.

I promised myself to act if I notice me becoming bitter, I'm too young for that :)

Hope you find peace

 

[Letgo]

Wish you peace and rest.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing certainly is so tiring, I can imagine that it must be a relief to have the option of the SN, I wish you the best.

 

[TheHuman]

Good luck man wish you the best!

 

[RolfZuckowski]

Thank you all for your kind replies. AE is on the way, gonna make another post next week once I'm ready to go :)

 

[-TheSorrow-]

Best wishes, hope it goes smoothly fren.