The world situation has made me rethink suicide. And to you?

[Goth Girl]

Dejo esta canción italiana en el fondo.

I always thought of suicide, but it was much more consistent at 11 when I suffered from Bullyng. Every once in a while I cut myself. 1 week ago, my country was quarantined, the only times I was happy was when I could go for a walk, meet friends, and have fun. Now you can't, being locked down depresses me too much. Now I know that a great global economic crisis is beginning and my future is most likely in ruins. I am not from a poor family, I could say that I am from the upper middle class, but my family has had financial problems and with the coming crisis I will not be able to take it anymore. Everything will go very wrong. My biggest fear is dying in pain right now if I call 911 in my country, no one answers me, so if I have an accident or something akin to appendicitis, I will die slowly and painfully. I I can not resist

Ah SUICIDIO! Ma penso che valga la pena di andare!

 

[Lady black]

The situation is really awful, I also think I have to hang myself soon

 

[Ulisses]

continue with my ctb plan, once this isolation is over. I want to buy my SN, see the sea again and ready for my departure.

 

[Girobatol]

I regret not having killed myself before the crisis. Now I dont want to put another burden on my older mom and dad. There is a strict lockdown, and my mom came to stay in my house. If I ctb Ill put her at risk because she will have to call a doc to give death certificate, maybe police because is a suicide and so on.

 

[Goth Girl]

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La situación es realmente horrible, también creo que tengo que ahorcarme pronto
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La situación es realmente horrible, también creo que tengo que ahorcarme pronto
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¿Cuántas veces lo has intentado?

 

[Thebuddhacel]

Tbh, no. If we are near to apocalypse I want to watch it.

 

[Lady black]

Sorry I´m only bale to underdtand english or german language

 

[highlyvolatile]

Sorry I´m only bale to underdtand english or german language

She said the situation is really horrible, she also thinks she'll have to hang herself soon, she asked how many times have you tried.

Also I wish i'd ctb sooner. The quarintine just has made it harder for my dad's side of the family to get food and im so damn hungry. I'm currently living with them and unluckily for me they had 3 fridges (two fixed one broken) that were filled with mostly expired and moldy foods. So I got screwed there, I guess.

 

[Lady black]

Thanks for the translation. I have tried it a few times, the last time was nearly successfull but I was rescued after passing out

 

[Thinking Beyond]

Just buy yourself a painless method to have in case shit hits the fan in the future.

 

[ManWithNoName]

Dejo esta canción italiana en el fondo.

I always thought of suicide, but it was much more consistent at 11 when I suffered from Bullyng. Every once in a while I cut myself. 1 week ago, my country was quarantined, the only times I was happy was when I could go for a walk, meet friends, and have fun. Now you can't, being locked down depresses me too much. Now I know that a great global economic crisis is beginning and my future is most likely in ruins. I am not from a poor family, I could say that I am from the upper middle class, but my family has had financial problems and with the coming crisis I will not be able to take it anymore. Everything will go very wrong. My biggest fear is dying in pain right now if I call 911 in my country, no one answers me, so if I have an accident or something akin to appendicitis, I will die slowly and painfully. I I can not resist

Ah SUICIDIO! Ma penso che valga la pena di andare!

Hola Goth Girl - si quieres charlar en español, puedes enviarme un PM.

 

[calendulo]

No I don't.
This situation could to delay the choice, even could complicate it.
Imho the one and only reason to change such decisions or choices is the love.

 

[SneekUponIt]

This lockdown/quarantine is an usher into CTB for me. I feel more ready to leave than I have ever felt. I had savings put away for maybe trying recovery after this all blows over, now cash isn't even an accepted form of currency, not for food or medications...sad for people who don't live on credit ,and don't keep most of their funds entrusted to a bank account. Essentially renders some of us artificially impoverished, and who knows what's going to happen when this all gets under control. I won't be pulling up to The Government ques for a handout when I have used my skill to forge a safety net that's now rendered useless lol..not laughing at the global pandemic btw, just the way things came crashing down in my personal life again.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

now cash isn't even an accepted form of currency, not for food or medications

Huh?

 

[ManWithNoName]

, now cash isn't even an accepted form of currency, not for food or medications...sad for people who don't live on credit ,

Is this because they think the handling of the money is considered unsafe? Many officials in Europe think it's ok to handle bills and coins.

 

[SneekUponIt]

Is this because they think the handling of the money is considered unsafe? Many officials in Europe think it's ok to handle bills and coins.

It's true it isn't safe to handle money with their bare hands, they should be wearing gloves. They still take cards and have to handle I.D., so I'm not sure why plastic bills are suddenly worthless. In my country they're supposed to take our newer bills as It's allegedly illegal not too, not happening in my province anyway.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

They still take cards and have to handle I.D.

Most (Western) registers have machines in which the customer inserts the card. If it's debit, no ID required. If it's credit, the customer can hold up their ID.

But are there places that are refusing cash? Is this a thing now? If yes, where?

 

[ManWithNoName]

It's true it isn't safe to handle money with their bare hands, they should be wearing gloves. They still take cards and have to handle I.D., so I'm not sure why plastic bills are suddenly worthless. In my country they're supposed to take our newer bills as It's allegedly illegal not too, not happening in my province anyway.

That's strange because where I am all people who work now are using gloves so the risk should be a non-issue.

 

[JohnUK]

I was planning to jump from beachy head but in a lock down its become difficult. Don't want to be here much more so planning to hang in the coming days

 

[Mr2005]

Look at it this way. If the state of the world is reason alone to ctb then nothing than lead us here matters anymore. It could be a fresh start not only for us but the whole world. Yeah I know that's being optimistic but it makes a nice change

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

The world situation has not made me rethink suicide … just makes me think … god, I wish I had done it sooner.

I was planning to jump from beachy head but in a lock down its become difficult. Don't want to be here much more so planning to hang in the coming days

I'm afraid of heights but Beachy Head looks like a beautiful place to CTB. I've seen other pics of it and I think I have watched drone footage of it before.
I was watching a program on NatGeo and I think they were filming there. Are there fossils there ??

 

[ManWithNoName]

Look at it this way. If the state of the world is reason alone to ctb then nothing than lead us here matters anymore. It could be a fresh start not only for us but the whole world. Yeah I know that's being optimistic but it makes a nice change

Adversities like this can lead to much better times after the crisis—something about getting through such shit can help reset one's psyche.

 

[Fragile]

yep. putting more burden on my family was already holding me back, but now with this crisis it will be even more devastating. leaving them right now would be kinda cruel.

should've done it last year as i had originally planned, but then i decided to give this life 6 more months and maybe, just maybe attempt some recovery. i didn't expected, you know, a fucking global pandemic and then the worst economic crisis of the century.

i still feel like this is more of a delay unless I or one of my relatives gets a positive diagnosis of this virus. this is almost guaranteed to kill me because of my poor health, and many in my mother's side of the family have specially bad pulmonary issues. loosing a close family member will be enough to tip me over the edge.
at least i have my N if it comes to it. having a good way out is a great comfort right now.

 

[Hollow Point]

The quarantine has kind of had the opposite effect for me. Instead of being locked in a room or house, I've been forced outside more. The shelter isn't 24/7 anymore. Places that normally welcome the homeless like librarys and malls are closed. The area I have to hang around in to get food and shelter has more then the usual amount of people wandering around. I can't say it holds any weight on my decision to ctb at this point.

 

[TooLate2582]

If society is going to collapse, I'm gonna ride that bomb like Maj. Kong. That will be my new method, get kilt in the upcoming collapse.

The chaos, I live for it.

 

[ManWithNoName]

If society is going to collapse, I'm gonna ride that bomb like Maj. Kong. That will be my new method, get kilt in the upcoming collapse.

The chaos, I live for it.

 

[blivogade]

The situation is hard for sure, it hasn't made me rethink but it has definitely made me consider my timing more as i wouldn't want to fail just to waste highly needed hospital bed.

 

[Goth Girl]

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Las adversidades como esta pueden conducir a tiempos mucho mejores después de la crisis; algo sobre superar esa mierda puede ayudar a restablecer la psique.
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Hola mejor enviamelo vos, yo soy nueva y no mucho de como funciona este foro?

Sorry I´m only bale to underdtand english or german language

Oh excuse me, forget to translate, apparently you are the only gothic here?

 

[Clut]

The situation is hard for sure, it hasn't made me rethink but it has definitely made me consider my timing more as i wouldn't want to fail just to waste highly needed hospital bed.

Exactly this. I can't possibly use up police and maybe NHS resources whilst they are so stretched

 

[ManWithNoName]

Hola mejor enviamelo vos, yo soy nueva y no mucho de como funciona este foro?

No tengo opcion enviarte un mensaje (PM)—quizas porque estás nueva aqui. Proba por favor this "settings" o visits mi profile (clik mi nombre para el enlace) quizas hay in enlace enviarme un PM.