Tiny Little Fairy
Member
- Jul 15, 2021
- 7
I thought I was okay, that I left all of this thoughts behind and the new meds were working, but no.
I'm like trying to do anything to keep me here a little bit longer, like I bought like three packages overseas, of things that were a bit expensive and looking forward to have them! Hoping that the waitint would keep me alive long enough to get better and get help, knowing that It'll take a couple of months for them to arrive and still, that's just not enough.
I have 4 cartons of clonazepam 2mg, each of 30 pills and the urge to just swallow them all with vodka or whatever is so severe, the thing that scares me tho, is that I don't know for sure that all of that would kill me, there's a big chance I'll end up in a coma or brain death, and that's a much worse fate.
Do you have any suggestions like what can I add to the "cocktail" to make sure it doesn't fail? like sleeping pills or narcotics?? I can easily get some tramadol.
I don't think I can be alive much longer. I can't. being a human is just too painful and pure suffering.
I'm like trying to do anything to keep me here a little bit longer, like I bought like three packages overseas, of things that were a bit expensive and looking forward to have them! Hoping that the waitint would keep me alive long enough to get better and get help, knowing that It'll take a couple of months for them to arrive and still, that's just not enough.
I have 4 cartons of clonazepam 2mg, each of 30 pills and the urge to just swallow them all with vodka or whatever is so severe, the thing that scares me tho, is that I don't know for sure that all of that would kill me, there's a big chance I'll end up in a coma or brain death, and that's a much worse fate.
Do you have any suggestions like what can I add to the "cocktail" to make sure it doesn't fail? like sleeping pills or narcotics?? I can easily get some tramadol.
I don't think I can be alive much longer. I can't. being a human is just too painful and pure suffering.
