The urge is getting exponentially stronger

[CravingPeace]

I'm sitting at work and I cannot believe that this is the career "path" I chose. I provide nutritional services to low/no income households, and yet I barely get paid enough to live. There is no trajectory for growth in salary since it is a government position.

Every day is getting harder and harder to wake up and come to work and yet I have to to be able to live uncomfortably. I am sapped of all my energy when at work so even if I wanted to better myself in my off hours, I am too exhausted.

This just doesn't seem sustainable, and it is becoming more and more clear. There isn't an end to the suffering. I can't escape it and exerting myself even more than this for a slim chance of improvement seems implausible.

I want to give up so badly

 

[deadbidaylight]

It sounds like you're burnt out from your job. Are you able to try something else? I know that sounds stupid asf, but I could see how a job like that could suck the soul out of you pretty easily. Especially with minimal pay.

 

[CravingPeace]

It sounds like you're burnt out from your job. Are you able to try something else? I know that sounds stupid asf, but I could see how a job like that could suck the soul out of you pretty easily. Especially with minimal pay.

I feel like I can't. If I go into the private sector, I'll lose my chance of getting loan forgiveness. I honestly wish I chose a different career path. But it seems impossible to "start anew" without losing everything I have now, especially my security and stability.

 

[deadbidaylight]

Oh yeah, that's a rough spot to be in for sure. I wish I had more advice to give, but I feel your pain and I don't blame you at all for feeling the way you feel. We get into these positions where they really do feel hopeless. I hope for your sake that things start looking up and can give you more peace and freedom than what you're currently in. My heart goes out to you