Hell... im in a tight spot. I won't go into my story again, but I really am loosing my mind. No meds help. Im with a home teeatment team who want me to get better and stay out of hospital but I know its just a matter of time - and once im in, they wont know what to do with and ill end up in something that paralells institutionalisation even if i briefly go in and out forever. Im not crazy per se, its just that life has dealt me an impossible, overwhelming set of circumstances. I can't do SN, due to Lyme. I cant afford N anymore. All I can think of is making a GULPS machine. If im still here in a few months ill be absolutely screwed.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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That sounds like an awful situation to be in, I'm sorry you are going through this. Life is so cruel and unfair. The amount of pain and suffering that exists in this world is horrific to think about. People deserve the option of a peaceful exit at a time of their own choosing, no one should have to put up with such extreme suffering against their wishes. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.
Making and using a gulps machine seems pie in the sky but its my only option now. This is so surreal. Im labelled psychotic now... maybe i am a little, but not as much sd they think. The real problem is just too overwhelming to even discuss, not that anyone understands when you try to put it into words. Ive been dealt an incredibly bizarre and awful set of curcumstances. It's hard to fathom how or why. I cant hang. I just can't do that either.
Thanks for your reply i wish u the best too!
Thanks for your reply i wish u the best too!
Its not a case of SN not working. Its just that my body is constantly inflamed and anything i ingest drug wise causes a massivevl pain spike - so im sure SN is off the menu for this reason alone.
